calikins
Motherless Girl
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Sexuality:
Bi-Curious
Favorite Porn:
BDSM
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Feb 9th, 2014
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
~ Marilyn Monroe
"If loving you makes a slave of me, then I'll spend my whole life in chains."
~ Sophie B. Hawkins
"Do or do not. There is no try."
~ Yoda
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These past fifteen years have been a journey of self-discovery for me. I spent eighteen years of my life being miserable and not enjoying sex because I was too afraid to admit to my partner (or even myself) what I wanted in the bedroom. I came from an abusive household and it took a lot of soul searching, courage and determination to break through the barriers that resulted from my childhood. Admitting I liked to be held down, hurt, taken was confusing, exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time.
Before my arrival here, I had been stuck in what was becoming an unhappy marriage with my partner of 30 years. I have only been with my husband sexually. (Shocking, I know.) I had never had an orgasm with my husband, I used to be a prude and couldn't talk openly about sex, and I blushed at the drop of a hat. (Okay, I still blush at the drop of a hat, but I'm working on that!)
Since coming here, my sex life has done a complete 180. I am able to orgasm with my husband, recently learned I was a squirter, and am always looking for ways to spice things up in the bedroom. The hardest thing I have ever done was answer his question, "What is your ultimate fantasy?" with, "Being taken by Daddy." I was shocked when he didn't freak. Even more shocked when he learned of my online play and didn't divorce me. The most shocking discovery was that my husband, who I thought was vanilla, actually loved being my Daddy and was a bit of a sadist.
So now we are trying to figure things out. How to incorporate BDSM in our daily lives. It is not easy with a teenager in the house - but we do what we can.
I am one of those people who you either love or you hate. There isn't much middle ground with me. I can be annoying. I can be immature. I can be a drama queen. I can also be loyal, loving and kind. I love to smile, and sing and act silly in chat. I am very flirtatious and affectionate. I'm also a geek, and I like geeky guys who know what a d20 is. Goonies is my all time favourite movie. I play WoW and DDO. I've tabletop'd rp'd since I was ten. I'm also a Star Wars fanatic. (If you are a trekkie, you are dead to me!)
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