I'm a stay at home mom of 3 beautiful children. A boy and 2 girls. I have always been involved with them and love them very much. I have watched them grow up and confess that they are very good looking. I have had to work very hard at not thinking they were sexy. But it hard when I see them in their underwear every morning...especially my son.
I have always secretly monitored my children's computer habits by checking their computers. Two years ago, when my son was 17, I was checking my son's emails when I came across some naked pictures of my son. He was lying on his bed with an erect penis. I was suddenly sick and fascinated at the same time. He was so big! Much bigger than my husband. It stood so straight and tall and beautiful. And yet it was my SON!!!
I never said a word, but every now and then, when my children are away. I look at their computers. And every so often there are new pictures of my son and his friends (girls and boys). I get all wet and find myself fantasizing about something that cannot be. I've even found objects around my house that were the approximate size of my son, and tried to feel what it would be like.
Eventually, my daughters also started to share pictures of themselves with their friends. They are beautiful and sexy too. And in a way I am glad they are proud of their bodies. But it has made my life so much harder. I have a new way of thinking about being a loving mother.
