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Instead of feeling sorry for yourself, get your ass up and start something new. I used to think exactly like you a few years ago.

"If only I could turn back the time! I know so much more now! I could make that one decision that would change my life".

I thought about this "going back in time" thing for a while and came up with a pretty cool idea. It's obviously not possible to time travel. But why not just PRETEND that it was. Let's assume your future self, say 30 years in the future, sent you back in time. And you landed...right here. In the present. How would you live your life then? You have no memory of what happened in those 30 years, so you have to make your own decisions. You only know that you have the chance to make it right. Think about it. What would be the next logical steps in your life, to make it better? Instead of giving up and wasting your precious time, you might as well give it a try.

Now, that was my way of dealing with my depression. I thought about my situation, put everything into perspective and started new. I did consider suicide in between that process, which took a while, but I came to the conclusion that it's not my best option. Looking back now, it's hard for me to understand that I even took it into consideration, but back then, I really thought about it. It was a viable option. I think almost everyone has considered suicide at one point in their life, or else they haven't lived. I know now that it's almost never an option. Maybe when you have cancer and you're beyond treatment. But not if you're "just" depressed. If you're not strong enough to find a way out of your depression, which is often the case, then talk to someone you personally know and ask them to help you. See a psychiatrist. You will get better.

Can't change the past. Man up and move on.

Oh, and "on a break" means your GF is getting dicked by someone else 90% of the time. Either break up or stay together. The half assed "on a break" break up is an excuse for her to fuck someone else then rely on you emotionally.

There is a very simple fact of life you should understand. If you do not like your life, do something to change it. You are not a starving Ethiopian kid. Man up and take some responsibility for the state you are in.

Well at least now you know what people are all about. People are shit dude. They are only there when times are good. Most people are users. They only want people around they can use for something.

When you catch the wave again remember this and don't cut the fuckers any breaks.

Not all or even most people are shit. Most the time when people whine about how people are only there during the good times it's because they're super unbelievably completely unreasonably emo. Most people I know will be there for a friend when they're having a hard time, assuming they have a reason for being sad. A break up or lost a job or something. The problem is when someone is emo for 2 fucking years over someone they dated for a week and a half. That's just self indulgent whining. No one will stick around for that. You can choose to be happy. Make that choice, and stop being a downer for no reason, and you'll find your friends WILL be there when you have an actual reason to be down.

So basically, YOU decide if your friend has an "actual reason" to be down, and is therefore worthy of your help. I think that's exactly the type of friend OP was talking about. Fuck "friends" like that, find real friends that are there for you no matter what.

hey OP here, I just want to say thanks for everyone's comments, they are really thought provoking and honestly help a lot. Today is a better day than i've been having lately and all of your support really brings me up even more. I feel inspired and have been putting applications out, and working at with my girlfriend.

To everyone who has been, is, and will be where I am now its people like you who really count, not those "friends" as you guys mentioned.

Sincerely from my heart, thank you.

-J

people do kinda really suck... but give em a break. they are only human.

if you ever get to the point where you'd end it... change shit up. try being nice and helpful everyone, despite all the dicks and assholes or other people with evil intent.... though they prolly got to be that way for some reason if you think about it. one persons pleasure = one persons pain, 'cause the social world works in that weird (yang-yin) sorta way. just focus on the good about people no matter how small. you want your brain to be a good place to live or a twisted one?

as for women.... there's a lot of em. A LOT. like.......... A LOOOOOTTTT. the good ones are somewhere out there.

i'm used to getting alotta hate. just remember

"Might be bugs on the rest of you muggs, but there AINT NO BUGS ON ME."
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