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I agree with the above poster.

and you came here?

Step 1: Don't come here. This is a bad place to do any of the things it seems like you want to accomplish.

I hope you will film yourself doing it

Sounds like you're worrying about society's so-called standards too much, go live life not worry about measuring up to someone. Who cares if u haven't been married? Had kids? Got a great job? There's SO MUCH MORE to life! Shit you obviously have the net, read wider.

Quit your job.

A new job means meeting new people and new possablities for promotion.
With starting a new job, it gives you a chance to re-invent yourself as nobody knows the old you. Save a bit of cash and treat yourself to a holliday.

Life isnt always as bad as it seems, wait a year before you concider anything stupid, I bet things are better.

Hope things work out for you. A

if it sucks that bad, just scrap everything and move and start fresh somewhere else. fuck your weak personality, man. that's some lame excuse. you probably need a change of scenery. move somewhere nice and find a job that doesn't stress you out. obviously you want to move up in the world and pursue the usual litany of bullshit that everybody thinks is important, but maybe that's why you aren't happy. i read about this one guy who was fed up with shit in north america so he went to mexico and opened up a taco stand near the ocean somewhere. probably has no money but at least he didn't kill himself like an idiot.

If you're going to kill yourself, at least be useful and take out some scumbag politician at the same time.

I know how you feel
I am sitting at the same crossroads myself just turning 21 today...
i dunno what to tell you.

if you find anything that helps at all, please let me know.

im 27 and dont intend to be here when im 30 so you have done a better job than i have buddy! If your serious about killing your self i would advise carbon monoxide poisoning but dont do it by car fumes.. please for god sake as it doesnt always work and you can end up a vegetable being fed from a spoon for the rest of your life!
This is what i have planned for my end:
Go to any gas retailer and buy a small canister of carbon monoxide also look online and buy a oxygen mask with some plastic tubing, make sure your tired before you do the next part(stay awake for a day and a night)
then when your ready.. fit the plastic tubing onto the canister with gaper tape then put the mask on and make sure the mask is secure around your face (im going to put string so i can tie the mask around my face)
Now turn the gas RIGHT up relax.. you will sleep peacfuly forever my friend!

Your lucky you have a job, many people dont and cant get a job and lost everything. I have been there, done that. Lost my dad and daughter last Dec within 3 weeks time, no job and unemployment ran out. Got a bottle of vodka, some good narcotic pain pills and some sleeping pills. Drank it all down and even though I do not remember, I called my mom and she got worried and called my neighbor, next thing I know I woke up with some Dr telling me he just saved my life..man was I disappointed. At 50 yo and not a thing to show for it. Anyway the moral of the story is, turn off the phone and make sure you wont be found out before the job is done.

Just in case this is a serious post, I want to say a few things to you. The best way to snap depression is to do something to make you feel good about yourself. You will have to make yourself the first time, but try this. Find some places like soup kitchens, visit VA hospitals, senior centers. You haven't got to be a hot stud to make friends there..and you will be appreciated..that will give you some self worth and that is what you truly need right now. What have you got to lose, dude? Try it...

Please contact someone to get some help to speak with someone about your thoughts - your local hospital can point you in the correct way - if you want to contact local law enforcement and they will get you in touch with the right person to speak to about these thoughts - remember, the sun will rise again tomorrow and it's a new day.

Why does it matter if you've been married, or had kids? Fuck societys "standards".
Just to be accepted and classed as normal we have to follow in the same footsteps of the millions before us and millions, scaringly maybe billions, after, of the old boring routine: grow up, get a job, find a partner, have kids, settle down and die.

Sure one or two of them may be fun and make us happy, but if we fail to achieve all them we are classed as a failer?
Stop looking into the hyped web of what gaining "happiness" is. Start a new life, far from it all, and just live the way you are - do what makes you happy.

I would firstly shave off the first three problems: that you feel you need a wife, kids, or a girlfriend to feel important. I have none and I don't feel any less than if I did.

Second you SHOULD make changes in your life. I would start with the insecurities. You need to change you confidence. Try downloading "Physical Confidence" from pickup 101. It'll teach you how to be confident when meeting girls, but it applies to every aspect of your life, and it should be taught to every guy on earth! It changed my life. I now stand up to people who would normally walk all over me.

Schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist, get on some meds and all those bad feelings go away. When you're feeling better about yourself it'll be easier to improve what you don't like. Try to stay away from police since you may get involuntarily committed and make things harder.
Whatever you do, don't consider suicide an option, it's too tempting when you lose hope with life. Think of it like heroin. You're an addict and you need to get off of it and stay away from everything that reminds you of it.

Buy a backpack, fill it with the essentials, then travel and you will eventually find what it is in life you are looking for. Remember, around the next corner might be a girl who is looking for you. Suicide is not an option, the only way it ends is with you in a hole in the ground.

Wow, I didn't expect so many detailed posts offering me advice. I thank each one of you for taking the time to respond to my confession. I will now address some of this advice. First off to everyone saying forget societies standards mostly in regards to starting a family . I admit that I am not ready for that at this point. I just want a gf. I have been lonely for to long now. To the guy who said go to a psychiatrist. No I am not going that route. And to everyone suggesting I make these all these external changes. I believe that anything new I attempt I will still be limited by insecurities, my weak personality. etc. The guy who suggested I download that confidence stuff was on the right track. But I need more than confidence. I need a total rebirth. To do that I need to self-brainwash and reprogram my mind, but have so far been unsuccessful finding what I need to make that happen.

Life isn't for everybody.

Only 15 days to go, I'm counting down the days. I hope the original poster isn't being a fake!

OP find a copy of the Satanic Bible and read it. It is a thin book so it will not take long. If you really want to change your life then that would be a good start. If, after reading you still want to kill yourself, just be careful to do it properly. The one thing you do not want is to become a vegetable. Good luck either way.

Stop Fucking whining and get on with it you useless Shit !

Seriously OP, reading crap in a book will not change a damn thing. Self help books are bullshit written by narcissistic bullshiters. The only way to gather self help is to go and do it your way.

You have an insecurity, spend a day breaking that insecurity. Afraid of heights? Go up in a skyscraper go to the windows and look down. Can't talk to women? Become the creepy fucker at the mall talking to random women.

You want change but are unwilling to pursue improvement. Nothing changes if you don't change them yourself. A goddamn self help book will do nothing for you unless you beat yourself with it.

If you insist on continuing to cry about being weak, rather than do something to improve your lot, my suggestion is to fill a van with manure and diesel, drive it into your local mall, and BOOM! Go out with a bang and get rid of some mindless consumers too. Don't forget to use your credit card and fuck them out of the money.

There are countless of women who are lonely friend. Go out to a bar and talk to some lonely chicks. Quit being a pussy. Be aggressive with promotions too.

Most of these comments are ridiculous, impractical, and are responses from people that are clearly not life long suffers of chronic depression. I myself have known I felt this way since I was in grade school...

Psychologist or psychiatrist? Ha ha - After much reflection I can tell you exactly why they won't be able to help me - they follow the same structure as someone who practices medicine - my point? They don't care about what you have to say and you can tell how impersonal the entire situation is because at some point YOU REALIZE THE PERSON YOU ARE SPEAKING TO IS FOLLOWING A COOKIE-CUTTER LIST OF QUESTIONS. Without going into depth about my current place in life and what I've seen and done academically - I've grown rather pessimistic of the health care system - and the extension of this model in mental health.

I've realized that while I am going there to seek "treatment" - rather than me speaking, it is always the health care worker rambling off questions like I'm part of a fucking form letter. My personal lens through which I view the world and how I perceive that I fit into the human web of society - and this lack of connection to other human beings - is what brought my into this "treatment" option in the first place. Yet, after I do all that I can to drag my ass out of bed and arrive to the physical location to get into the god damn room, I'm being read a bunch of bullshit questions. Furthermore, if ever given the opportunity to speak - its just expected that I magically "connect" with this person with the clipboard whom I've not met before or not on a long term and consistent basis. Meanwhile, this asshole is most likely thinking about how many more patients they need to see so that they can make their new car payment - as they attempt to tune me out. Amongst other things, they also are really thinking about how they listen to people bitch all day about their problems - problems that are subjective to that person's own experiences - so the self entitled little bitch who comes in crying that she can't fit into her trendy high school because daddy didn't get that BMW she wanted - was then followed by the patient who was raped by an uncle, had a drug addict for a mother, and saw their father fuck the family dog right before putting a .357 into their mouth and splattering their brainstem all over the family room wallpaper. Now - imagine the mental health care worker trying to sort all of this out themselves.

If you think any of what I've said isn't true then you don't understand the system of mental health care. If someone in the mental health care setting is reading this, then they know exactly what the fuck I'm talking about. The story about the girl-crying-bmw followed by the person whose last memory of father and dog were fido getting fucked and medulla oblongata sliding down the floral wallpaper backdrop - these 2 stories one immediately following the other - actually happened. Told to me by someone I know who is licensed in the mental health profession, licensed by the state to prescribe medication, etc etc...(person is a blood relative)... Some of you wonder why at the end of the day, the person just throws a bunch of pills at you.

I'm also amused that people who tell others to "go get professional help" are so fucking enthusiastic. For myself, no medications have really helped me personally. When it comes to the group of folks that can be classified, using the current DSM-IV standards as suffers of chronic long-term depression, there is nothing that will "cure" them and the degree to which medication helps somebody is unique to that individual.

SOBERING STATISTIC (TRUE) - Roughly 2/3rds of individuals whom have committed suicide have seen a mental health care professional within the last 30 days prior to killing themselves. It is an ignorant assumption that I've seen many make to assume that "...if only they had talked to someone..." Give me a fucking break you ignorant fucks.

One more thing, I don't know if some of you are young, ignorant, naive etc etc... but some of the response shere that appear to be someone offering a suggestion that they think might help (eg., killing oneself over webcam clearly isn't a suggestion that will help another)- those that are attempting to say "dude, eff the system" or "go to mexico" or "dude, you don't need a woman or a kid dude" or "do drugs/drink" - from my perspective, have no idea what depression at this magnitude is like. If I were a betting person, I would say that those "mental" outlets have been explored, long ago - or - the person contemplating suicide realizes after much thought - that they are band-aid fixes.

To the original poster - I have not walked a mile in your shoes - so I can not say that I "understand" your specific point that you are at, but I have been walking further and further down this rabbit hole myself and with this connection - can say that I am burdened with the same pain of getting out of bed at some point everyday and looking at myself in the mirror - asking myself how the hell I fit in this grand cluster-fuck that some folks call "civilization" or "society." I don't bend over backwards to try to conform to what mainstream media tries to perpetuate as a social norm, so I don't feel a need for specific achievements as if life were a fucking video game - specific "achievements" and keeping up with the jones' who always have their side of the lawn greener than their neighbors who continually try to finish a rat race with no defined goals (who haven't taken a moment for a break long enough to realize this) - these are not what keep me up at night. What bothers me is that enough people do follow this pattern that I find it increasingly difficult to make a connection with others, those that do not eat from the feeding-trough-o-bullshit. I want to feel a connection to human beings, which seems harder and harder to maintain with each passing day.

To the above poster:
It's people like you who give me faith in the human race.
I return to my fapping now.

Hey OP. Don't do it. Life may suck, but it is all we have. Heaven and hell are made up places... Human life took 4.5 billion years to evolve on this planet, and by some stroke of luck, you were conceived. You weren't born a cockroach, or retarded, or the child of a leper on the streets of India.. All things considered, you got a pretty good shot at having a good life. I know things may seem mundane and worthless right now, but things can change if you put some effort into it. I have recently joined a gym and although it has been a struggle, and lots of work, I have lost 15 pounds since January. Am I getting laid now? No, sadly, still no girls that I like will pay any serious attention to me.. but i am still trying to make a better life. This is all you can do... American culture is so infused with bullshit, that we feel if we don't resemble the perfect American ideal: married to a Barbie doll, 2.5 kids, great job where everyone respects you.. that we have somehow "failed at life". This is total BS. Our sense of entitlement to all things "rich and famous" is a direct result of Madison Avenue ad execs pushing the American dream down our throats for generations. It is not reaslistic to expect such "happiness" ot attainment of material pleasures in our short time on this planet, and yet so many are led to feel like they are inferior or worthless because they don't live the same way they perceive the "successful" people do (and we all know how fucked up the Britney's of the world truly are!) Bhuddists claim "all life is suffering", and the only path to fulfilment is thru attempting to acheive nirvana. This is in direct opposition to the western thought that you are entitled to all the riches in the world, and if you don't have them, well, you missed the boat. So, my heartfelt suggestion is to forget about what you don't have, realize it is a freaking miracle that you were even conceived and born into life, and appreciate the little joys that are available to you (yes, even jacking off to images of cute, young girls should be considered a joy and a pleasure) and build on those. From your posts, you seem like an intelligent person, so go with your strengths.. When you stop tearing yourself down, and start trying to build yourself back up, you might even meet someone to share your thoughts with...

But, yeah, don't fucking kill yourself. It would truly be a waste!

Second the distrust at medical "professionals". At best they can help (or medicate) the symptoms, but to get at the underlying issues would require someone with super-human insights, and going to college for 4 or 6 years hardly gives a person that ability. They would have to transcend their training of trying to fit their patient to case-studies and previous patients, and truly understand each individual at a deeper level than most friends and families know each other.

If you're truly at rock bottom and can't go on... try starting over. There are countries you can teach ESL at without a degree (might want some basic training if you have none, a 1-month course would do, and can often be done in said country). Sell off all of your useless junk (most of what we own falls into this category, so be merciless), put the rest into storage (with friends/family if they have the space). Then move away committing yourself to at least a year. Generally speaking you will make more than enough to live on, will be living in a much more socially friendly place, and the people (yes including ladies) will be eager to meet you (mostly because you're different, or to practice English, but so what). Some of the countries/schools will even pay your return airfare!

Something to consider at least.

Part of your problem with attaining some of the things you want in life might be that you have too extreme a viewpoint. When you say you need a "total reboot" or "total brainwash" you are setting this extremely high standard for what you would consider useful actions. You have probably been defeating yourself all along by setting these extreme standards for yourself, and then simply not following through on anything at all because the standards seem unattainable.

Instead of ramping up your emotional intensity even higher, saying you have to totally brainwash yourself into a new viewpoint, consider that maybe you actually only need a few simple, small changes in order to start seeing some progress. Simple, small changes are attainable. "Total brainwash" is not.

Also realize that you can choose any thoughts you want to focus on. If you focus on "I am such a fucking loser, I am useless, I can't do anything" you will feel hopeless. If you focus on "I don't have to achieve ANYTHING in order to enjoy life...I am OK as I am" or "My goal is just to enjoy life, to take it easy, lower my expectations, enjoy the simple things" or focus on the actual real pleasures of life which are mostly physical things like a really good night's sleep, a tasty meal when you're really hungry, a hot shower when you're dirty, sunshine, the smell of fresh air....

Don't make "married" and "have kids" and "have a gf" such a big huge MUST HAVE in your life. Those things are not bliss, take it from me. Girlfriends can be serious pains in the ass.

So your first job isn't to find a girlfriend or a new job or to completely reboot your mindset. Your job is just to start enjoying the little things of life. Take the pressure off yourself. You don't have to prove anything in life. All you have to do is enjoy yourself. Quit making great big huge unattainable expectations for yourself. And the truth is that when you become that easy-going person who is laid back, smiling, enjoying the little things in life, not getting harsh on himself, then you become really appealing to be around....and the next thing you know you've got girlfriends and friends and whatever. So job #1 is just learning to ease back and enjoy life. Have fun at it. Find a job you can have more fun at. Take it easy. Be that guy everyone wants to be around because he's in a good mood and makes them feel happy to be around.

fuck it, if you considering suicude then you really dont have much hope in the way you are. but if youre gonna do it then at least have a good few days left here, hire some hookers, do drugs, get pissed. maybe youll have such a good few days youll change your mind. whats the worst that can happen if you want to die anyway?

Last October 2 weeks before my 23rd birthday, I tried to take an OD because of depression and social anxiety disorder that was ruining my everday life...I got anxious and paranoid about being in peoples company (even immediate family members')to the point that I have become a recluse. Eventually I started becoming delusional and started having DEEP conscientious battles with myself to the point I even thought I was jesus battling demons. I also thought that everyone in my life was really dead and in heaven and I had to do the same, anyway, when I tried to commit suicude I ACTUALLY BELIEVED I was doing what I was SUPPOSSED to do. Long story short, after I tried to commit suicide my delusions went away on their own, I was seeing a psychiatrist for about a month before I realized he wasn't helping so I quit. To this day i am still depressed and anxious about everything. The regret I felt after was awful but one thing I have learned is not to put your loced ones under this kind of stress and grief for ANY reason.

Try joining a club of some sort or become involved in an outdoor hobby or such. Socialize as much as possible and cherish what you've got man. There's never any reason for suicide. I truly hope you reconsider.

1.) go to bar
2.) get drunk
3.) fuck some easy/ugly chick

Getting some pussy always makes things feel better.

Jesus...all these people coming here to whine about offing themselves...what a bunch of selfish bastards.

fuck hookers, ride a motorcycle, get drunk and try different drugs or save cash for traveling. Marriage and a relation ship are way overrated, I know because im in a relationship now.

OP here. I appreciate all this advice. Just knowing that some people care a little makes me feel a little better. I would just like to say to all the posters who are taking the tough love approach, and saying to just up and leave and start a new life elsewhere. Well to me that seems like running away from my problems. Like just being in a new place will change me. A previous poster said it best by saying it's a band-aid fix. Also to everyone saying to fuck societies standards and just live the way I want. I get that. Thing is I just want a gf for now, mostly for hot sex. As I said I am not even ready for the whole family thing. And I would like to say to all the posters suggesting I simply change my thinking by being positive. I have already tried that, but somehow it didn't stick and I always end up back where I started. Like when I tell myself I am a winner. Life is good to me. Something in my mind will be like, ya right, who are you trying to fool? That's why I feel some level of brainwashing is needed.

The bummer is, that getting a girlfriend requires you to be happy with yourself first. And only then will having a girlfriend (and the sex) have any meaning.

Believe me, having a girl or sex right now will not make you happier in the least bit. A friend of me went that way. He's very good looking and having sex with different girls almost every week. But he is lonelier and more confused than ever.

The ONLY way to build your confidence and eventually become happy with yourself is to set personally important goals and work towards reaching them; as long as you make progress bit by bit, you will feel great.

The key words are: personally important goals. I don't think you give a fuck about your current work, so start doing something you REALLY care about. Obsessed with rabbits? Work with rabbits. I'm an mediocre actor with nothing to show for it and broke most of the time. But I feel like a million dollars because I do something I love. And, indeed, I started it by starting a new life, throwing away the old one in one fell swoop, vowing I would never ever do anything anymore that I didn't love.

And if you need "brainwashing", read good books. They contain the ideas that can change your point of view regularly.

Oh yeah. And never EVER use drugs or medicine regularly. That will only make it harder. MUCH harder.

Booze is ok.

Hi, don't do it man!

If you think about all the girls that rejected (or supposedly would reject) you, realise that for every girl you see on the street you would want to fuck, you already have rejected 9 others.

If you only look at the "hot" girls you're really missing out on some otherwise quality stuff man.

dont rape anyone you fucker, god the first person is an idiot. Don't do suicide...please, and do not rape either -.-

get a cdl and become a truck driver, you get to see the country, you get plenty of truck stop whores, it is what my grand father did, plus you get paid for driving

Your life sucks...why wait til your b-day...do it now...just make sure it works...otherwise you'll be a loser.
Ohya...make it spectacular...chicks dig spectacular!!

In case the OP is serious, I will first say that your death achieves nothing. There are many recorded instances of depressed people seeking refuge in social websites, with the resulting jibes, and encouragement to "go ahead and do it". For your sake, and the sake of anyone who knows/loves you, don't commit suicide.

Why I'm bothering to say this? My wife left me 4 years ago, and I attempted suicide by overdosing on my prescription medications. I was surprised and somewhat disappointed when I awoke in hospital. The impact on my children of this attempt was bad. They were extremely upset, and my extended family were devastated.

I have a serious autoimmune disease called scleroderma. It is debilitating, and the prognosis is that it will ultimately prove to be fatal to me. I have had it now for 11 years.

Since the divorce, I have begun to feel better emotionally and physically. I didn't expect that my life would ever be good. The important thing for me, is that life is now quite different. It's not what I had or expected to have - it is entirely different. I'm single, enjoying single life, doing things for myself.

I understand your desire to check out, but you are depressed. It is a medical condition, not just words that people use. You need to seek professional help to overcome your depression. In Australia, we have a contact website www.beyondblue.org.au - I'm sure that other countries do also.

In short, if you are serious, then you have a medical problem that can be treated and cured. Please seek help.

And now a comment to posters who encourage the OP to go ahead and commit suicide, just imagine if someone you loved did just that. Shame on you for lacking compassion and the humanity to assist someone in a dire situation.

Hey bud, I have some very REAL advice for you. I�m in your situation %100 percent. My advice may not be what you are looking for but it is working VERY well.

I understand you need a restart to life, forgetting the past, letting go of what you currently have/want and so on. I also understand you don�t have the ambition, patience or will power to do anything really life changing.
You need a change and you need it to happen effortlessly.

My suggestion is hard drugs and I will tell you why.

Once you experience the completely different world hard drugs put you in, you will have a temporary reason to live (ex, anticipating the next time doing the drugs). It�s easy to maintain your current life as well if you don�t get into the hardcore addictive drugs. I recommend cocaine because it will give you that happy motivated feeling and I also recommend ecstasy because it gives that happy loving introspective get my life in order feeling. You�ll meet lots of people/whores and have the time of your life.

If you do get addicted, then go to an Ibogaine treatment clinic. In three days you will be rid of your addiction. It�s only legal in Canada or Mexico but it seriously works, look it up.

If that doesn�t change your life, might as well get into the hardcore drugs like meth or heroin. Eventually you will tire of drugs and have the ambition to get your life on track so get the Ibogaine treatment and go to some group help stuff like AA. It�s great place to meet people that have been through what you have. Not to mention the girls are super vulnerable and usually looking for a life partner.

Now if that doesn�t work, there�s no chance for happiness my friend. Some people do die old and alone and I don�t recommend you to be one of them.

Best way to kill your self is an air bubble into your blood stream. Once the bubble hits your heart, death comes within three seconds.

With that I say good luck to us both, and happy fapping!

Oh, I forgot to say...

I can't believe the amount of positive responses on a site like this! I thought it would just be idiots saying stuff like rape someone

Nicely done fellow fappers!

Yeah, taking drugs is a good idea. Go from being a depressed single guy to being a depressed crack addict.

Simply killing yourself is such a waste of what you are capable of...
Just look at those men in China that killed toddlers at daycare centers.
Now just think if you were to rape and then kill toddlers at daycare centers. That would have a serious impact on the world.

ok, here's the deal. Like you I have not had sex, nor even a relationship that comes close. Low paying job. Future prospects-next to nill. A couple of downer friends. I'm turning 45 this week and live with my 87 yr old blind grandma. My parents are both deceast and I have been diagnosed with a bad heart. I welcome death as the gateway to another chance at life which hopefully I won't fuck up. I live for three reasons. 1: till my Grandma passes. 2. Scared to off myself(figure I'll do myself in by a heart attack. 3. By Dec. 21st of 2012 the whole crapshoots supposed to end. If by 2013 the world has'nt fucked itself and the fireworks does'nt amaze me then I'm outta here. Till then hang for the show. if you're still around the4n we can get with the other cowards and off each other. How bout that?

Yeah, hard drugs is a good idea, going from depressed single to friendly drug user is much better than killing yourself. It's just one step to try when you have nothing else to fall back too, and it's fuckin fun as hell. If you get addicted, get the ibogaine treatment tho and you will never want drugs again

Aww; see? Motherless DOES care...Im going to throw up in my mouth now...

I left an earlier post suggesting you start volunteering at places to meet people and get yourself a feeling of self worth...funny how things just seem too much trouble for people...fine, just fucking wallow in self pity and off yourself..just be nice and do it in a mortuarys parking lot, so the people you think don't give a fuck won't find you. God forbid, you actually try to "make" yourself feel better.

As someone who has been down this road more than once, let me give you some real advice.

First, make a list of the top ten things that have brought you the most pleasure in your life. Then go out and do as many of those as you can.

Second, cut off all the negative people in your life. If your job is getting you depressed, quit. And play the boss' head like a bongo in celebration.

Third, go find some comedy movies that have made you laugh to tears and rewatch them.

Fourth, spend more time with your friends and loved ones. If you truly mutually care about each other, that alone should bring up your spirits.

Last, think about how people would react to your loss. A couple close calls ago I was racing down a small highway looking for a semi trailer to ram into. When I finally saw one started accelerating. In those final moments, my neice and nephew crying flashed into my head. It brought me back to my senses.

The people around you will feel responsible for not talking to you more. I know because that's what happened to me last time. One of your thoughts before going through with it is going to be contacting the people closest to you. A "cry for help" if you will. I didn't need to explain a thing. One of the closest women in my life knew what was going through my head without me having to tell her. She started crying on me, saying she should have spent more time with me and prevented these thoughts from ever making it into my head. The memory of her crying for me has kept me from doing some stupid things since that day as well.

Are you dead yet?

Yah, please be sure to post and let us know as soon as you are actually dead. lol

Wow you hate me that much I see. Go look at the date I started this topic. July 4. I said I would commit suicide in 16 days. Has it been 16 days? I think not.

Nah, don't hate you that much. Don't even know you. How can I hate you if I don't even know you? I was just trying to inject some levity into the thread with an utterly stupid comment (duh, how could you post to say you're dead, if you are dead?) And yes, I can count, but I didn't feel like waiting a few more days just to post a idiotic, dumb-ass comment.

You dead yet?

why wait 16 days!

Everybody dies finally, so you don't have to kill yourself.

Get yourself an effective dose of MDMA.

3 days left, you fat fuck!! Are you ready???

Why shouldn't he kill himself???!? Everybody dies, it's true, but he has the chance to choose when, where and how (and I hope his fatass won't burden too many people with having to clean his mess up); plus, worthless pieces of shit like that are just a weight to the rest of society, so thank god he chose to rid us of the problem, I wish all of them did that, instead of feigning craziness and raping social security!!

Dude, you're going to die eventually? Why kill yourself and surely die unhappily? Suicide makes no sense, because suicide is the ONLY thing which takes away the possibility to find at least a little bit of happiness in this world. Look for happiness until the day you die, and don't cause your own death. If you never find it, then at least you died trying.

Soooo...You dead yet?