I confess I almost told my mom I want to die. I almost told her that I've been making little attempt because I don't have the nerve to do something drastic. I don't have it in me to go into my kitchen and run a knife down my arm. I can't overdose because I stop myself. I cut my leg a while ago and it's closed up. I took pills, I've nearly gotten hit by a minivan, SUV, even a pickup truck, but I just can't get the fucking job done.
I can see myself MAYBE coming out of this depression and feeling something other than worthless again, but not right now. These fucking headaches and these anxiety attacks, and these feelings of helplessness and worthlessness are more than I can handle. I've been dealing with this for well over a year and I cannot afford to get "fixed" professionally.
As much as I'm sick of living, and want to find a way out of this suffering, I don't know if I truly want to kill myself. I'm afraid the attempts are going to keep escalating until I find success.
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ugh, so tired of thread of people wanting to kill themselves on here. Dont they have suicide prevention boards they cant post this on somewhere else. Who comes to a porn site to cry about hating themselves, attention whores.
You are a loser if you don't follow through. Probably a fag who didn't get enough attention from daddy.
More details might be helpful for suggestions. Why do you think you feel "worthless", and what happened a year ago?
You need to tell your mum. Trust me these people are assholes don't listen to them. Life is better than what you feel it is at the moment. Your mother will help you through this time. There are other ways out of suffering other than death. This in turn will cause suffering on to your mother and anyone else who is close to you. They will not know why you done it if you haven't told anyone atleast if you do decide to end it all they will know you were suffering.
Stop feeding into this... just do it, population control
Do the world a favor go find or buy about four foot of good rope. Find a sturdy limb on a tree high enough that you can wrap one end of the rope around the limb two times. Prior to doing this tie a strong enough slip not in the other end of the rope. Now find a bucket or something about 2 to 3 foot tall to stand on. Stand on the bucket, place the rope around your neck and tighten. Then kick the bucket away as far as you can.
lol, this is the last place id come to if i wanted compassionate people. Id come here if i needed encouragement.
Some fag is begging for compassion on a public anonymous forum on a website that hosts videos dogs being crushed and cats being set on fire!? LOL!
So you don't want to cut your arm because you don't have the nerve,
yet you've cut your leg (which is worse then cutting your arm, almost jumped into traffic, and tried to overdose, ALL of which take more nerve then running a knife down your arm.
*clap, clap, clap*
Nice try, almost had me believe you, but next time re-read your story a couple of times to make sure there's no flaws.
people look for compassion where they are most comfortable. where they feel the most safe. so he's closer to us than his own family that's fucking sad but at least he's got somone to go to
and why the fuck are you looking for flaws? depressed people dont think straight
7 BILLION people on this cluster fuck of a planet... we can easily afford to lose the broken ones. They will not be missed.
if youve tried that many times and your still alive you dont want to die. its a pathetic cry for help. if you wanted to die you would be dead. grow a pair of balls. life sucks! deal with it!!! you cant afford medication? then drink. thats what id do! FIX IT! FINISH IT! OR FUCK OFF!! this is a porn site!!!
Please seek help. You say you can't afford it but there are ways to get help for free or low cost. You just have to seek them out. And your Mother will probably be able to help you if you give her a chance. Suicide is not the answer. Trust me those that love you will then be suffering too so please try to seek help asap. Good luck and know that there are people even on here that care.
Have you ever thought that his existence may be causing his family undue suffering. How can you say that suicide is not the answer. Maybe he's a major downer and causes people stress.
Let him go. The world does not need mopey losers hanging around wasting air.
I can say it because I've seen too damn much already firsthand and also what it does to people.
For the guy who wrote
"So you don't want to cut your arm because you don't have the nerve, yet you've cut your leg (which is worse then cutting your arm, almost jumped into traffic, and tried to overdose, ALL of which take more nerve then running a knife down your arm.
*clap, clap, clap*
Nice try, almost had me believe you, but next time re-read your story a couple of times to make sure there's no flaws."
I'm a cutter so I can tell you this isn't bullshit. Legs are a less obvious place to cut if you're not slicing too deep. IDK if this is a guy or a girl but whoever it is doesn't want to die and isn't sure how to turn back. My parents and friends are always checking my arms every time I get depressed. That's why I don't cut my arms anymore.
OP is a fag. He should just end it and remove his mental defect from this world.
Tell your mom, I bet she will kill you herself. must be a disgrace to have such a pansy ass child that can't even take the easy way out
I'm sending you a big hug your way. I don't know if it'll help but feel you need a positive affirmation amongst all this negativity. Luv n big hugs! You will get through this. Be strong and seek help.
For one thing, DON'T listen to anything these Anonymous posters here have to say. Yes, this may be the wrong place to ask for advice from these basement virgins, but no call for them begging for self-murder.
There are a lot of free counseling services available to help you deal with your condition. I urge you to please seek some of it.
