I confess I don't even know if I can continue living. I lost the love of my life 2 weeks ago and it's all I think about. I miss her so much. I constantly see her face or hear her saying my name. I go to bed almost every night crying and have panic attacks when I get real worked up. The conversation we had during the break up just keeps playing through my head. I dread tomorrow every day. Too many things remind me of her.
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get your memory wiped, you can do that these days. just don't worry about the side effects, and the fact that you won't know your name and you'll be left out on the street with nothing and someone will have taken your identity. you'll go on living and not being reminded of her, right?
mate, you can live or you can die.
dying: your story ends. everyone else's story continues. you're dead.
living: your story continues. you can feel pain, pleasure and live in the knowledge knowing that you're trying your best in life regardless of the ups and downs it throws at you. you're alive.
there's no guide to living life and there's no best or worst way to live it. there's just living it. sometimes life has these times where you feel like giving up and saying fuck you, i hate this pain, i wanna die but you just have to look at life and say that "fuck you, i hate this pain, i wanna die but not on your watch, not when everyone is leaving me alone, not when i can do so much fucking shit i wanna do in life"... you know what i mean.
don't think of all the reasons to live. don't think of all your reasons to die.
instead. don't think about life and death for the moment. don't think of memories with your ex or who ever it is you're talking about. think about your day, what you're going to do and maybe tomorrow as well. also, write down some goals, some legit goals - small and long term. don't worry about whether you think you'll wanna die or not = write that shit down. don't think about relationships when you're doing it or love or life. just write down some shit. have a look.
put things in perspective but not in regards to the things i mentioned, that shit clutters things. just see the world as your own.
peace
That was real awesome. I saved a text file of it. Thank you random anonymous stranger
This was probably one of the most awesome responses I have ever seen to this topic. I'm saving it as well.
I've been there man I really have. I know you have probably heard it before. But it gets better. Just try to stay busy. That's what worked for me. Some times its hard to even get out of bed I understand. But everything passes. It will work out for you my friend.
Not sure how long you two been together but shit bro there is more fish in the sea.
go somewhere else with this bullshit nobody cares but don't kill yourself
You just have to keep at it, man. It hurts so bad now, but you have to look to find ways to filter that pain away a little at a time. Like the last guy said, set goals to guide you ahead to the next day, and the next day, and the day after that, too, until you can't see yourself giving up any longer because of how much you still have left to accomplish in your life.
Time will heal. Give it three months you'll be laughing. Three months sorts any hertbreak out.
she was just going to get fat anyway. stay friends with
her but be really really sad all the time and she may toss you a few pity fucks. all her friends will feel
sorry for you and eventually you'll be fucking one of them and forget all about
her!!
He who knows when he can fight and when he cannot, will be victorious.
Sun Tzu
signed,
the really stoned girl giving away free bad advice
//www.youtube.com/watch?v=eki_PRzNk-Y gilbert o'sullivan alone again naturally
original poster I know EXACTLY what you mean. My situation is a little different because the girl never loved me back, just somebody I knew and liked, and she's getting married to somebody else. I'm glad for her but my own feelings are really complex. Right now what's making me sad is that I stupidly shared these feelings with her family, and her mother is "uncomfortable", and her father says he and I are still friends but that I shouldn't talk to his family. That's really depressing because they were important to me in high school; I was suicidal then and they basically saved my life.
Hopefully time will make it better for both of us, original poster. In my case hopefully the family will eventually realize that it was all a big misunderstanding, I certainly didn't mean to hurt them. Hopefully you will you find someone else who makes you feel as good as the last girl.
I will say this: though there may not be light at the end of the tunnel we are in, we can always dig our way out and find another tunnel which does have light, one that has light which is closer to us.
Good luck my friend.
OP here. Thanks, I hope you find someone too. What makes my situation hard is knowing that we still loved each other when it happened. We both decided to break it off cause it was taking such an toll on our mental and physical health which was stemming from stuff that happened in both our lives (her family hating our relationship was one of the things). It's hard to explain, but we both knew that us going our separate ways would be the best thing in the long run. I'll love her till the day I die, which makes it harder cause I miss her so much.
Was she hot?
Give us a picture. I wanna see how hot she was.
you are in the wrong place for this crap. kill yourself or don't. no one on m'less will care. or even notice
I know this is going to be difficult to believe right now, but I can almost guarantee it's going to get better. It's going to take a while, but it will happen.
I think that the other option of suicide has not been adequately explored and I'd like to quickly touch on it just to give balance. first and foremost, you have the choice to live or die, not that those pro-lifers will let you know. its not up to anyone except you. please accept the thought that she could have been the one. if pure love is so rare then why do you have people yelling you there's plenty more fish in the sea and you'll get over it? personally, I see that view as an insult to the value you gave to this girl.
if anyone on these boards actually cared about you on these boards like they claim to, then they would respect your choice and views, no matter what the outcome was.
Not saying it's the best advice for your situation (since I think that has already been given), but this was during my Army Basic Training, September 1996. We had a suicide attempt in our Company who was taken out by ambulance. A short time later we were formed up outside. This was our First Sergeants speech; about 99% verbatim:
"Sure you can kill yourself, and we'll have a nice memorial for you and we'll put your picture up in battalion, and all this other nice shit. But within a year, NOBODY will remember you. It's not like dying on the battlefield for your goddamn country. If you kill yourself you're a pussy. Don't. Fucking. Kill. Yourself. If you feel you can't last a day, then last 5 min. Then another, and another. After 6 rounds you've been alive for a half an hour. Try to go another. Next thing you know you've been alive for just one more day and that day could have changed your life. Don't kill yourself. Kill the one thing that you KNOW you can beat. Life. Beat the shit outta it. Make it your Bitch, and that's the ONLY Bitch you can beat, remember that. Killing yourself is a Permanent Solution to a TEMPORARY Problem.....That is all."
THIS IS A CLASSIC CASE OF MUNCHAUSEN BY INTERNET
let me get this straight... you "mutually" broke up with a girl you can't live without, and now you are thinking about killing yourself?
Cut UP the wrist, not across... if you do it across, they can sew you back up.
That, or MAN THE FUCK UP
SUCCESSFULL TROLL IS FUCKING SUCCESSFULL, you gullible idiots replying should ignore this asshat. Seriously people who have servere issues like this don't come on websites like this for advice or counseling, and those who really want to kill themselves just do it.
Wouldn't be surprised if this OP is the same one that has written similar other bullshit posts about wanting to commit suicide. All no doubt fake.
