After trying every other roa for crystal im being drawn to slamming. I found 3 fresh sealed spikes yesterday in a family members dresser and its like i knew it was definitely going to happen soon.
I would love someone to help me but being alone is so hot and almost religious in the way that I knowingly accept and surrender myself to the constant need to have my mind fed and warped. I give myself away in exchange for constant elation and lust feeding
I know the hold it has on me will tighten and other things in life will lose their appeal as my life becomes a search for more and more and other addicts to share our love, fluids,and needles
I want to feel my addiction take hold and show that it will never loosen its grip on me. I will never consider life without it and it gives me purpose pleasure and satisfaction
