Your first bf is someone who will steer your sex life, in a direction, you might've never know existed. My first was in college, popular guy, rich, every girl wanted him - but he wanted me. All of that is fine, but there was a quirk - he would let his friends watch. Not at first, not openly, but he would leave the door open, so they can see us passing by, then they would peek, laugh. I caught myself looking, some of them were playing with themselves.
This went on for a long time.
Of course, nothing came out of this relationship, but the consequences are still there - me being present at this forum, is a vivid example. I always was, and always felt beautiful, but after him, only thing I ever wanted, was validation from men, all the men, any man.
