Confession.
I am a 47 yo man with mild Asperger's. I've been married for ten years, with three small kids, and wife is pregnant (oops).
Had a great deal of trouble talking to girls when I was younger. Eventually, when I was 21 I started going to strip clubs which helped me overcome that to some extent. I was still a virgin until I was 29, when I finally worked up the nerve to visit a brothel, and lost it to a sweet Russian whore named Tanya. Spent the next five years going to the brothels of the 'Golden Triangle' once every week or two, and spending about $50 for 40 minutes of GFE sex with the Russian and Eastern European girls I found there. Most of them didn't speak much English, but in many ways that made it easier, since I didn't have to try to have a conversation with them. I had several scares with broken condoms, but thankfully I never caught anything.
During this time, I was also trying computer dating, but I never got much interest from the dates I went on, and never had a third date with any of the non-pro girls.
A couple of the prostitutes seemed to become very fond of me, wanting to see me outside of the brothel and even hinted at marriage, but I didn't think that was such a great idea.
Eventually the local pay-for-play scene went downhill, and I became more interested in settling down. I started dating a girl from India, and after about 16 months we got married. My wife had a lot of hang-ups about sex due to her upbringing. It particular, there is a large cultural taboo against cunnilingus in India, and it took me years to finally get her to relax enough to really enjoy it, although she still resists if she hasn't had a shower within the last couple of hours. Personally, I enjoy eating her out more first thing in the morning, when her cunt is a little funky. She's still pretty repressed in the sack, but I'm able to fantasize that she's more freaky, and it's usually enough.
She generally needs a lot of foreplay to get in the mood. What I usually do now (in the evenings, after the kids are asleep) is give her a hot oil massage. I start with her shoulders, her upper arms, and her lower back, delivering little kisses as I go. Then I move to her feet, calves, and thighs. I then start to work on her inner thighs and hips. After she's really worked up, I have her roll over, and massage her inner thighs a bit longer, before I start to nibble on her pussy through her panties. At that point I usually push them aside for a bit so I can get a taste. Then I tell her how sweet her cunt is and how fucking wet it has become, before I rip her panties off for real and start eating her out with abandon. After I get her off a couple of times, I move up to kiss her while I slide my cock into her.
I love to fantasize about breaking down all of her inhibitions. I imagine us on vacation in Bangkok, getting her drunk in the hotel room. Then I'd pretend to order a massage for her from the hotel, while I'm actually making an long-time outcall from a massage parlour. Then she would get a long sensuous rubdown, followed by the girl pushing my wife's panties to the side and eating her out, while my hidden camera records the whole thing. Then I would return to the room while they are sixty-nine'ing on the bed, and would join in for the rest of the night.
I also imagine planning a night of seduction while her sexy old niece is having a sleepover with our daughters. Getting my wife drunk, (she gets really horny when she's drunk), and eating her out for an hour, while her niece looks on through the partially open door and fingers herself. Fucking my wife in reverse-cowgirl with a blindfold over her eyes, as her niece slips into the room and gets closer and closer, overcome with lust. I dream of holding her arms behind her back as her virginal niece begins sucking on her tits, and keeping her from stopping her niece as she begins kissing her way down to where my dick is slowly pistoning in and out of her dripping snatch.
Unfortunately, my dreams of watching my wife going down on pretty girls is pretty damn unlikely. She has a mucus phobia, and can't stand touching anyone else's mucus, or even her own. I'm not sure she realizes that pussy cream is a kind of mucus, though, and she doesn't hesitate to DFK me after I've
Lately, our sex life has been going downhill. Since my doctor increased the dosage on my blood pressure meds, I've been finding it difficult to maintain an erection with her long enough for me to reach orgasm. I don't have any trouble reaching climax while jerking off, so the problem seems to be that while I'm focusing on getting her off in the tender way she likes, I'm not really able to remain aroused enough to get off myself.
