I confess that when I was in high school (many years ago), I had an asshole of a boyfriend who was into humiliating me. He was a few years older (I was a junior and he had graduated) and would often pick me up for a ride home. One time as I opened the door to his car there was a puddle of cum on the seat where I was supposed to sit and he made it clear that I was to lick it up before I got in. Gross, sure, but no big deal, I had been taking it straight from the source anyway. Well, I found out that it was his buddies junk and he was watching from about 50 feet away.
I stayed with him waaaay to long and let him make me miserable for over a year.
Okay, so now that I write this it occurs to me that letting your buddy jerk off on the front seat of your car has to be just a little bit gay, am I wrong?

trini wasn't lying, she was definitely a virgin, because it took me several tries over a period of two days to get my cock inside her. she was extremely tight, i mean she's a very small, petite girl anyway. even though she was a virgin, she knew what she wanted to do, admitting she watches a lot of porn and touches herself a lot. once she got used to penetration, her kinky side quickly showed itself. we basically became friends with benefits, hooking up several times a week. i told her right from the start that i am not interested in being in a serious relationship, we can be friends and have sex, but that's it.

fast forward to this week, we've now been hooking up for a couple of months or whatever. the other night, trini asks me the weirdest thing; if she could watch me have sex with one of my ex-girlfriends. i explained to her that my ex-girlfriends are exes for a reason, i don't like them, i have no interest in talking to them, or even fucking them, ect. she kept bugging me and bugging me about it. i have two friends who are a couple, and they're in an open relationship. let's call them tim and erika.

now, i hang out with tim and erika quite a bit. they're very open to sleeping with other people. i know for a fact that erika would fuck me if i wanted to, and i know tim would be totally okay with it. i joked to trini that she could probably watch me fuck erika. now this is where the problem comes into play...

since saying that, she wont let it go. she says she wants to have group sex with tim and erika. she wants tim to fuck her, and she wants to watch me fuck erika. i understand that she's new to sex and she wants to experience different people, which is fine with me. i told her if she wants to move on to a new fuck buddy, go ahead. but i also told her i wouldn't be interested in sleeping with her anymore, because i don't like the idea of fucking someone who's also fucking someone else.

now let me get one thing straight: i am not homophobic. i have some gay friends, and i believe that what you do in your own bedroom is your own business. i've never fooled around or had sex with a guy, though. i also don't like the idea of sharing my chick. i know trini isn't actually my girlfriend, and i don't want a relationship, but i also have absolutely zero interest in watching some other dude fuck her, or even listen to some other dude fuck her in the next room. i'm just not into it. i told her hey, if you wanna fuck another guy, go ahead. do it on your own time. cut this thing off with me, because i'm not down with fucking you if you have another fuck buddy. it's just gross to me. i don't wanna lick her pussy when some other dude's dick was probably just in there the previous day, or whatever. i'm also not into the idea of sharing her with tim in exchange for me getting to fuck erika. trini doesn't understand that if she fucks some other dude, she's no longer that attractive to me. she's kinda.. like, i dunno, damanged goods or something.

she tells me that being that way is old fashioned and that i'm no fun, but i don't really think i'm being that unreasonable. i told her i'm open to having a threesome with her and another GIRL. if she wants to experiment with eating pussy or whatever, i can't give her that. but we don't need another guy in the room. i have a dick. i don't want to be involved in any sex act involving another dude, period.

is that weird of me? am i being too old fashioned? personally, i think it's my right to not want to join in on stuff like that. i don't think i need to experience it to know it's not for me. even the thought of it just makes me uncomfortable and frankly, sort of pisses me off. i don't wanna watch my friend fuck the girl i've been fucking. not cool. she says the fact that i'll allow another girl into the mix but not another guy makes me a hypocrite, but i disagree. i'm just not into it! i don't even really wanna fuck another girl, but i'll do it for her, but i'm not letting another guy into the mix, i have the draw the line there. am i being an asshole or is that reasonable? it's not like i'm holding her back from fucking a new guy on her own time. i just dont wanna be involved with it, and i don't even really wanna fuck her anymore if she fucks some new guy. i told her if that happens, we should just go back to being friends. i'm not crazy, am i?