I confess that I get off to anything that shocks me. Motherless helps with ita little but it's almost like an addiction, I need it and everything else seems too ordinary and plain.

In real life I'm fairly normal... except when the sudden urge to do something spontaneous and shocking takes over, and suddenly I'm seeing a prostitute, cumming in my female friend's shampoo in the washroom, finding videos of my parents fucking in their private collection and masturbating to it, or even getting sucked off at an adult bookstore while watching gay porn. None of it really appeals to me but the shock value that I'm doing it is intense. I once paid for humiliating dominatrix phone/cam sex because half the time my brain was getting off to the thought of "I can't believe I'm doing this" and "what the fuck am I doing?". I'm starting to think that I can't control this compulsion although another part of me doesn't want to.

I'm guessing I'm not the only one on Motherless who gets off to shocking things though. But I'm thinking I have a pretty bad case.

I am 24 and male. I confess, that I got my asshole violated and loved it. I always liked girls, but now I know that I have an asspussy, so maybe I need to reconsider some things.

I don´t want to bore everybody with all the details about the background story and how it happened. I found my self in a room with a bunch of guys and they decided to rape me. They wanted me to suck their dicks and threatened me whit a knife when I refused to do it. I didn't want to get hurt, so I basically gave in from then on. I got on my knees and started to suck cock. After a few minutes, when everyone was rock hard, one of them said something like: While we are at it, why not fuck his ass?

While undressing me, they noticed that I got an erection from giving head. I don´t know why I got hard from sucking their cocks, I really didn't like it at that point, I just concentrated on doing it. Well long story short, they started calling me a faggot and gave me a girls name. At that point there was no holding back for them, my lack of resistance and the obvious signs my body gave, made them believe I wanted all that to happen. Well maybe subconscious I did.
In addition to the girls name, they decided it would be kinda gay if they fucked a dude. So one of them went to the bedroom to borrow some panties and makeup from his girlfriend. They sliced the panties open, so my asshole would be accessible when I ware them. Then I got some lipstick on my lips, but not like you normally would apply lipstick, they just smeared it across my lips and cheeks. To finish it of I got a cowgirl hat, to cover up my male looking hairstyle.

They all laughed at me and told me what a pretty girl I am. I felt completely helpless and humiliated, weak and robbed of all my masculinity. Not that I think being weak and helpless is a feminine trait, but at this point, being in this situation I had no choice, other than feeling feminine. Being male just wasn't an option. I looked down on myself, saw my, now limp, cock in those panties and couldn't resist to think how cute those panties look on me.
One of them noticed that I went limp and said to me he knows exactly what I need now, to get in the mood again. I was told to get on all fours, so I did. He told me to crawl over to him and suck his dick, and I eagerly did. While I was sucking his dick, one of them started to lube my asshole and fingered it for a bit. I tried to relax my hole as good as possible, because I didn't want it to hurt. It sounds illogical, but when you push like you are taking a dump, its easier to take things up the butt. After figuring that out, he had no problems fitting two fingers in my ass. He then spat on his cock and pushed it against my hole. I guess my ass was a bit gaped after he pulled out his fingers because I tried to keep it as lose as possible and he said to some of the other guys: "Look at that greedy fuckhole!" one of the others said: "She is a real talent!", while saying that, he got in front of me and pushed his cock in my face. I switched to sucking his meat and continued to rub the other guys cook. The lipstick was all over my face. At the same time the guy behind me pushed his dick in my asshole. He was very gentle and slowly pushed his cock deeper and deeper with every thrust. Once he was balls deep, he took up a decent speed, but not to fast or hard. I kept sucking and started to produce muffled moans. They where right, it seemed to be what I need, my cock was hard again.
"I am going to make you feel like a real girl! Do you like to get fucked in your cunt?!" I had my mouth full of cock, so I didn't answer right away. The guy fucking me slapped my ass really hard and said: "I am asking you a question you stupid bitch, answer me!" The guy I was sucking pulled back, grabbed me by the chin, made me look directly at him and said: "Answer him! Do you like being fucked in your cunt?!" before I could answer the guy behind me started to orgasm, he suddenly started to pound me real hard and fast, my whole body rocking back and forth from his thrusts and him pulling me back on his cock. The guy holding my chin now screams at me: "Answer!" and whit every thrust from behind I get out one word at the time: "Yes-I-love-to-get-my-ass-hole-fucked!" He finishes whit one last hard push and pulls out. I feel cum dripping out of my ass. Then he says, heavily breathing: "Thats not your asshole you fucking slut. Thats your pussy from now on, a girl has to have a pussy. Do you understand that?" I answer "Yes...i do". One of them slaps my ass and says: "Good girl. Now beg us to keep fucking you."
So I am kneeling there on all fours, cum dripping from my hole, running down my leg, I am still stoking one guy with my left hand, feeling waves of bliss floating from my asspussy through my whole body, feeling the relive of being nothing else as a peace of fuckmeat. I stop to stroke the cock, I lay down on my back, spread my legs as good as I can and start to finger my dripping hole. "'Please fuck my asspussy, make me feel like a girl, pleeeeease. I want you to fill me up whit cum! I need your cocks, please make me cum!" I started to stroke my hard cock throgh the panties while fingering my cunt. One of them closed in on me: "You gonna get what you need until you cant take it anymore!" he pushed his cock in my greedy hole and started to fuck me, he fucked me way harder than the guy before, it felt amazing. He then slapped my hand away from my dick and said: "Stop stroking that ting! You can´t jerk off with a clit like that. Girls don't always get to cum. If you can´t cum from getting your cunt fucked, you don´t get to cum at all."
From then on I got fucked in every position I could imagine and some I couldn't. After hours of fucking and cumming I was covered in their lovejuice, my panties drenched in sweat and cum and my pussy was gaped. It was heaven...

This is more like a series of confessions than a single one.

I am a male. My sexuality is a bit complicated though.

While I am very aggressive, dominant, and very sadistic at times with women and most transgender women, I also love to be a cuck and be used by men. I have a very big cock and I am attractive, but I love to be used too

I used to be married, and my wife would fuck anyone she wanted, including my friends and our neighbors. Eventually she left me for one of her friends. I have been humiliated and used by people I know and watched them do the same to her and it made me cum just as hard as when I would tie her up and play with her. I wish I was still in a relationship like that but it's not easy to find someone you connect with like that.

Yesterday I had sex with a gorgeous blonde whore I paid 300 to fuck every way you can imagine (with a condom. I don't know how people fuck whores without protection.), in some tiny room on a couch in a rus Sian brothel. I think she is being trafficked but I don't really care it only makes it hotter when I think about it. She told me she is going back to the chech republic in 2 weeks so if I want more to make sure I see her before then. I will. I wish I had enough money to buy her as my own slave.

After that I wanted to be used too so I went to a gay bar and I met a guy there who took me in the bathroom and I sucked his cock for a long time. He had a really nice one. He bent me over and fucked me so hard I came into my boxers and he came in my ass. I let it drip out of me all night. I'm on prep so I'm not worried about that. I want to get fucked more, but I want a gf to watch it happen and humiliate me for it and fuck them too, then fuck her when she is all messy after.

I've done a lot more things than this, and have written about them here anonymously going back to when I was still married, but I felt like confessing this.

Thanks for reading.

I confess. I am a straight male with a very sexy and passionate girlfriend. I love having sexy with her, eating her out, fucking her ass (which she loves) making her scream and moan... but I also fantasize often about being a sexy lil sissy, shemale, trap cock slut for a nice fit guy (or guys). My fantasy started almost 10 years ago when I expanded my horizons and started looking at MMF porn, then that turned to bi porn and eventually I started looking at CD, sissy, trap and shemale porn. I began chatting online back when Yahoo was the place to chat. I, like so many other's, posted and pretended to be female. I started experimenting, rubing my asshole while stroking my cock, which led to a finger, then 2, etc. Over the past few years I started to wear sexy thongs and thigh highs. I have purchased several dildos for to play with. I am at the point now that I chat online on Chatave and on often get on video showing off my sexy thong and thigh highs, and get off chatting as a cock slut for horny str8, bi or gay men, sometimes women too. I will fuck my ass on cam with my favorite dildo and often will finish by throwing my legs over my head as I push my dildo deep into my cock hungry ass and cum into my wanting mouth or on my face. I love the warmth and taste of my cum. I've cum on my dildo and returned it immediately to my ass so I can get cum in my ass. I get super aroused when I suck on one of my dildo as I fuck my ass with another. I would really like to experience my fantasy. I'm not looking to be humiliated. I just want to explore my sexual boundaries.

Any wives or girlfriends turn your hubby into a gay sissy faggot?

I caught my husband crossdressed sucking the neighbors cock one day when I returned home from work! I made him finish off the neighbor which made me so wet! Probably because I’d ducked the same neighbor behind my husbands back many times. After this incident I decided I’d keep my crossdressing husband around (I had known of his dressing for some time and even indulged him just to make him happy while I fucked real men on the side. Any how after that day 20 years ago I’ve never let my sissy husbands little dick near any of my holes. I’ve made him suck cock to cum and turned him into a sissy faggot submissive and docile. He will obey any command no matter how humiliating or degrading it may seem. He will expose himself at my command and begs for my attention which is only humiliation. Any other girls have sissy husbands they like using to pleasure men?  Let’s hear your stories!! 

Im just such a gay closet boy. I wanna be a fag whore for all my friends and neighbors! Humiliate and degrade me as the worthless cocksucker i am i drop to my knees for dicks  

Guy asphyxiated with rope around neck by gay stalker and left humiliated by those to find this dead meat...

Looking for much older pervy man to enable my desires, from the moment I was legal I was on gay hookup apps, I have insane stories and I use them to get off. Want to be humiliated for letting things happen and pushed further into it. Pic related, woke up at 6am for a bootycall and was in this position before 7am.

I confess my wife has made me into a cum guzzling queen. It all started with her sucking my cock the first night we met and when I came, I thought she swallowed. She however had other plans. She came up to kiss me and when I opened my mouth she pushed my whole hot thick load into my mouth. I tried to resist but she covered my mouth and said “ you’ll taste your cum and you’ll like it” she said it so sensually and sweet I stopped resisting and it was the first time I tasted my cum. She asked me to hold it there as she stroked my cock for every last drop. She finally said “swallow baby” and I did with no hesitation. 

the next time she was riding my face. Her clit was so swollen and pussy wet. She was stroking my cock and I couldn’t help but shoot my shots. Well they reached he ass checks and ass crack. She moaned so loudly and started spraying in my mouth. I’ve never had a woman squirt let alone in my mouth. She screamed “swallow my juice baby” so hard nice again I did it with out hesitation. She slid forward and told me to lick her asshole. By no my cum was sliding down her hot crack and she made me clean it all up. Soon I was not allowed to cum in her, on her, or at all with out totally cleaning my cum from her. 

Slowly she brought up 3sums and wishing she would see me suck cum from another man’s cock. She wanted me to clean up other men’s cum from her pussy. At first I shied away from it but she kept telling me about these 2 guys from work. They always made nasty comments. I’m sure she encouraged. But she would bring home recordings of them speaking to her that was on smoke break. I could hear her saying “mmmm” and oh yeah. 

finally i was told she would be taking both as fuck buddies. She told me how she sucked a really big cock in the back room and swallowed. Came home with dried cum run down her neck. 

that week end I was informed they were coming over to “hang out” but as soon as we had a few drinks she started rubbing their cocks through their pants and staring me in the eye. She unzipped them both and pulled their cocks out. Stroking slowly telling me this was going to be fun to watch for both of us. One guy was black and had a cock 3 times my size. The white guy was just as big. She started to suck them and then beckoned me over. She made me kneel and watch close. Then said “your turn baby” she pointed the white cock at my mouth and I did what she asked. I let another man’s cock in my mouth. Hard as rocks. She took my hand and made me stroke and play with the black cock while I tried to suck. She pushed my head down till I choked. They all laughed and i continued. 

by then she was naked and pulling my boxers off to show my great shame of a small very hard cock. “She said she knew I was becoming a cum slut. I watched while they fucked her and stretched her every hole. She was screaming how she was their slut and they could own any part of her including me. After she came she said to get on my back on the bed head hanging off. The black guy stood over my face huge balls dangling she said suck them. The huge white cock guy lifted my legs back like a woman. I could feel her loob my asshole up. Then it was time. She pulled the black cock back to my lips and said open…both holes. I was so ashamed, scared but also never so fucking horney in my life. old cum was already dripping from my much smaller cock. And at the same time as she slid the huge black head in my mouth this young white stud slid his huge cock all the way into my virgin ass. I couldn’t scream because the black cock was at the back of my throat.

I wanted to cry but soon his huge member was rubbing my prostate and I became so horney I wanted more. I was facefucked and ass fucked. I was really a cum loving cuck. I couldn’t believe it. The pressure on my prostate was so intense I started shooting cum all over myself over and over again which only encouraged him more. I could taste the black precum as he slid in and out and soon he shot 5 big gobs into the back of my throat as she moaned for me to swallow, as if there was a choice. He pulled back and was still unloading cum into my mouth. It was sweet tasting. It was pouring out my mouth and down my neck and cheeks. 

the huge cock on my prostate still had me orgasiming like a little whore. Finally I felt him spurting in my ass. It came out for what seems like hours. 

she started scooping up cum from my sprays, what was running down my chin and cheeks, and finally out of my ass and fed it to me from a small glass cup. 

I’ve never been so humiliated and also cum so hard. My body betrayed me to huge cocks and demands from my wife. 
I’ve become a full time cum cleaner for her pussy ass and everywhere else these men and now many more have cum. Often she will invite 4 to five guys over and I’m getting fucked right next to her on the bed. Of course I still swallow every drop of cum from myself and any man that comes. 

I have more stories if anyone cares. I’d like to hear what you think about how it went down and what you think of me and the situation. I don’t consider my self gay but I love cum and being fucked. It’s a weird feeling. Thanks for reading. 

hi all looking for some advice. should I or should I not?
i have been steadily been trying to humiliate myself thinking up worse and worse things to do to myself, so when this happened it has kind of rocked me.

last weekend at a night out a gay man I work with started to chat to me. Nothing un-normal about this, as I get on with him quite well. the pub was crowed so we were standing very close when he was knocked into me by a passer-by. he grabs my cock & balls not in a groping way but in a vice-like grip and holds us like that for 15 - 20 seconds just staring at me. then he just acts like nothing happen.

I know I am not gay. he is in his fifty's I'm 32. but after the shock and when i got back home I was crazy horny!!!!!!

now yesterday at work he did the same. out of the blue when we were alone. he shoved me against a wall and did it again this time pressing himself up beside me. i could feel he was rock hard. when he let go as if nothing happened. i just nodded. went back to my desk and work for like 5/10 mins then I just had to get out of there! when to the toilet and he followed me in. im standing at the unianl and he just stands behind me and starts masturbating i cant help it turn around and he starts grabbing my dick tuging and slaping it painfully. i cant look at him will he is doing this. i just let him do it, Till he cum's and wipes it on my dick. tells me to phone him today if I want more and that if i do i will be his?WTF!!. again as soon at he left the toilet I had to have a wank. back in the office he is all nothing happened joking and chatting as he always is.

now i am sitting here wanking thinking about what he did/what i let him do and what he could do! thinking about calling him? WTF should i do ?

should i ..... arrrggg this is madding. he a man for suck sake. but the thought of bing his is riving me crazy????????????