I am born male.
I truly feel alone and afraid.
Mid 50's and still anytime there is interest in me I am placed in the same two boxes be it any gender or how one wishes to be seen.

Females so far lean to me being alpha/Dom or beta/sub and in all cases told I am to provide for them in all ways.

Males are kinda the same.

Trans are same except for one person who I wish did get the job and move here (it was talking about the area I live in that in time included watching tv on the phone together and as close as one can that way).
We had so much in common and she got and was fine with how being white and not around many people told her I feared messing up not knowing if I had learned any bad ways of being or thinking by years of growing up with all that goes on in the south. She laughed and said already I so kind that she assumed If I did anything it would be small and a simple goof and she would guide me as I was a keeper. If we had got together, she said she was who she wanted to be and would not change. We were open and just blunt. She was a woman with a dick that worked. I was so sweet it did not matter how when we did share our self with each other the way we did. She wanted me to be at ease and we would figure it out. She did ask me to consider all the ways we could. We talked about it. It would have worked as we both (for the pleasure of the other) wanted slow foreplay,kissing,touching,masturbation,oral,anal finger and toying and anal both ways.
She would help me get clean and said she knew how to treat her man and keep him very happy. She wanted me to let her care for me and please me in any way I ever had dreamed and new ways we found. She could hear on the phone my breath and voice sound like my heart was pounding.
We knew what we looked like and at the paper she worked at I could verify the pic she sent was her :)

With her there was no alpha/beta/Dom/sub... That was what we both found so great about what was going on with us. We would guide each other and she was upfront that she was a giving person wanting to give me pleasure and make me happy. She told me to be open as she never would be like others had I told her of....

I told her I wanted to please her too. I was a giving lover and if it was ok then at any time I may feel the urge to cuddle, hold, want to touch her and fondle her and just melt away doing that. I also did not fear just out of the blue giving oral and swallowing or sharing a kiss if that was ok. She was the same and told me we would be little bunny rabbits cuddling alot then.

She told me their would be times she would want to watch me as I gave anal and she wanted me to only do it in ways it felt the best for me and cum freely, she take care of everything. With her and how she was I told her I wanted her to do the same. Being equal and not into all the who takes from who and all that, we were free to do anything we felt be it for us or the other or together....
That is so hard to find and why I wish someone had not just change their mind and give the job to someone else... (being local I could keep up with what was going on at the paper and it seemed odd how it all went to someone who in the end got fired...
She would have been great there and in my life...

I guess the point is inside I have emotions and love not shown like males in porn and what many seem to want.
I find I am like many vids and pics of females who love each other and show it with care and much warmth but no domination or degrading for ones pleasure.

After so many years of being told my place would be this and that, She was of same soul as I am.

She had to go far west of even where she was to get the same better job. I was happy for her but still dream of what so far no one else is.....

I keep it to myself as It has been made clear from others idea of who I should be that I would be used or hurt. I wait for someone who is like her and also like her, finds interest in the same things I think of that I favor here. People have truly had hate just because I am pansexual or in short, If shown love and cared for as I dream then I can love anyone as long as they have real love for me.

I have wrote before how I respect all who respects others and truly care and their actions back that up.
I wrote how with all the harm in the world being done to others that I do not understand why so much open hate is shown to others here when that type of "play" should be between them and who wants it and not someone they do not even know....

I wrote that as it seems nothing I say is defended or supported who ever it is about and how truly nice I mean it about the pic or vid or post...
When a stranger just blocks you and you never have said a thing or they write you with hate and degrading words or attack your posts the same way it just makes someone like me so afraid and I just leave everyone alone keeping out of their way...

Please do not take this next part in a bad way. It is based on a real post and what I would think if it could be trusted.

A gay father has a son who is afraid of people like I am and seem to have been beat and so on at a young age as I did by others my age in school.

Seems they all have much in common with me so that would have been a good start.

I am over 50, the son is over 40, the father and his husband are early 60s.
The son is a full vers. ad the father is a vers top and his husband is a vers top.
They have the means and wish to find someone with much in common with their son who is very giving and they do not want taken advantage of....

The son and they talked... He is ok if the person they find becomes in bond married to him and them.
The son is not huge and that is fine with me. He has the same issue as no one is freely full vers and giving but not a sub.

His size with my help WOULD make me cum anal only. He is 3". And yes I would want to please him too and find what makes him cum from anal only.

That is just anal... All other ways above with the transgender I spoke of I think he would like too.

What the son talked about to them is if they could love that person as he did then chances are his size would not be an issue (as I said it would not for me)...

I would if real love be open to a real loving bond with all of them.
The father was a virgin when married his wife and then divorced and got the son. The only other IS his husband he is with now and they all are clean (and think of it, They would not risk their son or them self so it makes sense they wish someone who would not and has not taken risks or cheat as an option for all of them).

To have three people who care and love you and take care of you as they listed is like a family but also allows deeper connections and bonds.

In that setting, I could be as dirty as my inner desires dream.
They do not seem to do anything with the son so I assume I could be with the son or when them. The son can watch of that is what they want or what ever.
If I am in the middle and that's ok then I have no issues with what is ok with them all.

They say they and their son in private are more feminine than males and hope the other is also.

In that setting for sure of giving to each other, A few dreams I have some nights I would like to try.

One is they fondle and kiss me all over, play and suck my nipples. They slowly anal play till I am slick and ready on my own. They slowly penetrate me little bits at a time. When all is smooth they make love till they get to their edge and then swap.
I would like them to do this as long as they can and see how many times they can make me orgasm from anal only.
When we all are about given out, I want them to orgasm in me and we cuddle.

Another is I am in the middle giving anal and getting it.
Many ways that can go.
If the one giving cums then they swap.
I edge for my pleasure as they swap till I cum.

Another is before anal, we enjoy oral many times till we all have given to each other.
Then if they are still turned on by my desires, They swap one giving oral as one gives anal.
When I cum the one swallows and sucks hard as I tell the one giving anal to take me.
After they cum, swap places.

There are times it would be nice for any of them to fine me, show me their clean hole, suck me hard and tell me to take them.

If they are ok with their son and my lover being there, Then I have a special idea :)

My lover and I 69...
As we nurse on the others cock, the others give me anal swapping and we do that as long as we can as many times we can cum as we can.

It is funny I am not ever going out and doing all I dream... But I hope someone who is like minded and loves in ways as I do sees this and will do anything to care for and love me for all I am to and for them for all they do and give to me.

Well... That's all for now... If you are someone who hides and wishes for me as I am like you, Well, Keep looking here as you can find me if you will give and do anything for me. Hire a PI or what ever :)
Just be ready to prove your not like what I have run into on my own so far.... I look and try but domination is all they want to do to me or make me a slave....

It is not that I can not be sexual and be that like crazy... I just will not be ab_used ( I can not believe the bot banned the way I used that word. Soon all will be banned sadly), harmed, degraded ,placed at risk or used.

To real loving souls who would move the world for me, protect me, care for all of me, wish to make me happy and content forever..... My mind opens to much more than many. No harm or such.... But I will only say this... A woman is not the only being who can be attracted to a being whose loyal and will protect with all they are and show real love. As long as it is with love and care, So much is open to dream.....

If this draws hate, that backs what I have said. I have done nothing to anyone.

I confess I stole my girlfriend's lube and dildo because I was jealous of the size of it. she has an anal fetish and the bigger the object, the better. I wanted to know what all the hype was about so one night I decided to use her lube and work her huge purple dildo into my ass. I instantly got hard and within minutes I was shooting out the biggest load with the most intense orgasm I've ever had in my life. I now use it on a regular basis when I stroke my cock. intense orgasm and huge load every time. I also have a fetish for sniffing dirty socks and panties so when I do this I often stick her underwear in my face and deeply sniff while her dildo is deep inside of me and I do this until I get my load off. is anybody else with me? easy on the gay comments because i'm bisexual. motherless is not the place to pass judgement. moral free zone. aside from that I welcome all feedback or stories if you have any to share

I am a 41 year old male and got fucked raw for the first time in my life tonight.
I am not gay and date/obsess over girls and women but i do also sometimes like anal and dick.
I was parked in the car park tonight waiting for sum fun. He pulled his car in a distance from mine. I had gone out with the intention of getting sum cock fun so i boldly walked across the dark car park and pulled my pants down and flashed him my cock and ass. I got back to the car and flashed my lights and then he pulled his car up close.
I walked over and he got out. We are between a busy road and the train tracks at a known gay cruising/dogging site. We both got our dicks out and he had a lovely piece of meat. 7 inches and quite thick. I dropped to my knees and instinctively shoved that cock right down my throat and managed to get it all the way down without gagging. He loved it, i used my tongue on the underside of his head and gripped his shaft tightly while greedily stuffing that meat stick in and out of my mouth as fast as i could.
While i was doing this i got sum lube on my asshole and got a condom out. I put it on his cock with my mouth then as quick as i could, got up, turned round and told him to fuck me. He plowed me hard for 10 mins and i was in exstasy, every thrust striking my g spot perfectly. I have had smaller cock hurt a little before but this fuck stick felt so perfect in my hole. Such a good fit and he was a good fuck.
I spun round and ripped the hat off his cock and greedily eat it again for a few minutes. Then i stood up and we wanked for a while and he fingered my loosened and wet hole.Mmmmm. I asked him if he was into girls too, as i am, and he said he was married. Just came out to get a bit of fun he said... Well, i made his night, thats for sure.
All of a sudden, i felt the irresistable urge to act like a complete cock slut. I sucked his cock like i've never sucked dick before, choking, gagging, crying even and luvvin it!! I was being such a fucking filthy cunt. Then i leaned over the hood of his car and told him i needed his cock in my arse raw. He stuffed it straight back in and i told him i needed his spunk in my ass. I told him to fuck me really hard and to spunk deep into my fuck hole. I clenched my arse then, as hard as i could, and he lasted about one more minute. He strained and heaved and rocked forth and back as he came.
I didnt actually feel the jet of spunk inside me but i saw a huge load fall to the floor when he pulled out. He kept telling me what an amazing hole i have and that he wants it again soon. Little did he know how much he had made a dirty bi-sexual man feel very happy, filled, satisfied and horny.
Am i a slut??
I love risky sex though!!!

Omegle is awesome! A quick side note: I'm in my late 20's, straight, and an ex gf got me into like prostate play, but I have NO interest in men. If you haven't tried it, you don't know what you're missing. And I don't want to hear anything about gay here. I just don't care. Just like there will be no pictures here.

So just a few nights ago I decided to go on omegle and play with some of my toys. I usually do unmonitored video section and hope a girl pops up. I usually have a bigger dildo out and girls always do a double take when seeing it. Then about two thirds of the girls usually want to see me play with the dildo and get fucked by it. It's fun having a young girl watch and be amazed at it. But eventually it get old with 99% of the others just guys with dicks out. So that's when I start going to the texting section where you can pick topics.

For a while at first I started using the topics bi and lesbian, but I found most girls in the lesbian section have no interest in a guy with toys. That's when I started doing just bi/bisexual topics. The first thing I'd say to every match was "I'm over here playing with my toys (;" and ask for their asl. If it's a guy, on to the next, but if its a girl the fun begins again. Usually I say I'm 18-21.

There's a lot of younger girls there, but this is about a girl I found who's 18. She told me her asl and she ended up being in the same state as me. We narrowed it down closer and closer, until turned out she lives in the same city, about 20 minutes away! I kept an image of the chat record and will post a copy of the conversation, but to summarize it, I told her I was 21 and she really liked the idea of me playing with my toys, and that even she'd like to ride the the long 12" double dildo with me. I tried to get her to text me but she didn't want to give her number out to a stranger. So after we talked a bit more, I asked if she had a toe we could talk on later. That's when omegle crapped out on us with "technical difficulties"!

I was a bit pissed at omegle there but hoped something would happen. I kept scrolling through new partners, pasting my "playing with toys" line, and after a few minutes, I found her again!

Our second conversation went very differently. I found out she has a beautiful name, and from there it went from talking about her little vibrator, to anime, and 50 Shades of Grey. And by the end of a much longer conversation, she decided she was pleasantly surprised and that I wasn't a stranger anymore. She decided she wanted to text now.

That was three nights ago I believe (it's hard to tell because we've been staying up texting til 3-5am each night) and we've been getting very sweet and flirting with each other. Then last night, when she had a sleep over with her cousin, little sister, and a friend all in her bed, our texts started turning into heavy sexting. But she couldn't do anything for being squished between two girls in bed. By the end of the night she was telling me how wet her pussy was for me, that she was in agony not being able to relieve herself, and when she knew how excited she was getting me, she begged me to cumm for her. I did, and after some more flirting, she wanted me to cum again for her, telling me how much she wants to help take care of me and clean me off with her mouth and that I can only imagine what she's going to do when she finally gets real a taste. After she made me cum twice last night, she starts talking about how turned on she got me by thinking about "taking and spanking her naughty ass" (her words) and now I can't wait to find out what's going to happen next.

Now we've been flirting more and more heavily over the days and building up to getting together. She really wanted to see fireworks together and get a fourth of July kiss but we're both too busy that night, so instead now she can't wait for what I told her would be our own personal private fireworks that we could make. But I still have to tell her I'm ten years older than her, not three, and I'm still wondering if she'll love it or hate it. But from our texts, I think it's going to be a good surprise for her.

I'm going to go through the two logs of our chat next and edit out a few details. Then I'll post them for you guys to enjoy too.

But first, just how awesome omegle is... Another girl I met that same day there, that I won't go into much detail about, told me she was a virgin and a bit young, and she was very curious to see what dildos looked like. I toe'd her some pics and videos, telling her how good it feels when she finally get to stretch that pussy and ass to take something. At first she was curious, then said it looked kind of gross and dirty seeing anal for the first time, but shortly after she's asking me to teach her where her clit is and show her more of my toys... now that's a awesome toe log that I'm saving with pics that motherless won't approve of. d:

And that's it for now!

I wish Pan/Bi/Gay/Etc. had the same options a dominate woman has.
Someone to care for me and want to make me happy and content.
I have cared for those who I love and they loved me.
I have also been hurt or should we say others damaged my body in pure hate and lack of care for anyone.

Years have not been good to me.
People seem not to value someone who has placed others before their own future.

Now middle aged and no one in my life I fear nothing but losing everything is all that's left.

I see so many types of kinks and fetishes including those who have a need take care of and do for others.

I am not dominate or submissive but have taken charge when the need has sadly come up.

I have cried as I could do nothing but be by the side of who I love as they fade away.

If someone loved me and gave all to me, cared for me, made the rest of my life stress free and make a place with them where I need not fear or stress over anything anymore. Someone who truly loves to love me and wants to do everything for me because they want to just as those who state just that about wanting a woman to do and be all for them. I dream as there is someone for others that there is someone for me.

I can dream of many things that if they want, they can hear my thoughts and dreams and share in them. I want them to tell me their dreams and we watch and find many sane and safe things we can explore and try and I hope enjoy and crave more of.

If they need to do things then I would love it if they would tend to my body in playful ways as they clean and care for me and turn me on and drive my cravings for many things.
We share many things in our life. Many common everyday things.

With a dominate person, Many on their profiles or write where they love and dream to pleasure and do any dirty thing that pleases with great pleasure. They say even if placed in pain would please the dominate then the submissive would enjoy what ever pain given to them.

I am not like that.
I would enjoy sharing joy and pleasure with who would be selfless and giving to me.
They say they at any time are ready to sexually serve and worship their love.
Someone being all those things to me and truly happy to do it and even more seeing me happy would build the need in me to also just out of the blue want to do nice things to them.

If they are always giving oral and anything I love and always tempting me to get oral or give them anal or even to give me a hands free orgasm from anal then I would love to have them near, hold them, touch them, touch their body in ways I hope excites and gives pleasure and even when they are erect I give oral and when they cum I swallow it all and suck and lick them more just for fun.

If they are clean and ready for anal I may just finger them and give oral and make them cum if they wish me to make them orgasm when ever I feel.

If they get clean and offer their ass to me to take any way I dream then I would love to.

I also want them for my pleasure to clean and then give anal but stopping before they cum and then repeat and train to last only leaking precum into me while making me closer and closer to an orgasm just from pleasing my anus in all the ways I dream.

Do they want me to piss in their ass?
Do they want to drink it direct from my dick?

That and all kinks are up to them as I am not going to make them.. But I will help provide what I can to feed their kinks in ways I can...

If there is someone out there for me who dreams of someone different to be submissive to and would like how I return love for theirs then there is hope I will not die in fear of being un cared for it loved forever....

I wish there were groups who could match mindsets and ways of not taking risks to place the other in any harm...

If with others who stay safe and take no risks and only share them self with the loyal lovers they match, I know I would not need to hold back anymore and we could go sexually crazy :)

No i did not ask for someone to be rude to this post...
I do not attack you so if you have nothing good to say then please find someone who wants that and attack there...

I am not one you would have any issues with if a neighbor and you just respected my rights as I would yours...

We all are different and can support the others cause and wishes so no one can take them away us.
Be well and have open minds for all :)

I will always love everything about women but I think i want to try and be on the receiving end of a good fuck this time ;) Never considered anything gay before but have had gf's into anal play so since I can't get a chick to fuck my ass I have to get someone else to do it for me lol. What is the best site to find attractive and fit guys with huge cocks that are pretty legitimate? I don't want to make this a lifestyle just a few fun encounters to get this out of my system. I also don't want to create a personal bond with anyone I know, I'd rather talk dirty over email, exchange some pics and get together, a great time for both (or more?) participants. Any help is appreciated!

Warning: gay, crossdressing and trap stuff in this post.

I confess that i am kind of addicted to womens underwear, i had gay experiences and here are some of my adventures.

First of all a bit about this panty and crossdressing fetish:

It started a few years ago, my brother had a kind of hot girlfriend, maybe 7/10. I found hear panties and strings in the laundry and the smell turned me on. i used to masturbate to or into them.
I befriended her family and her twin sisters in my age. We used to go to the same school and everytime i was at their place, i used to go trough the laundry on the bathroom and smell their panties. i found it to be super hot especially when they started wearing thongs.
I used to be in a relationship with both, but it wasn't for a long duration. I had the opportunity to see and touch their pussys multiple times but it never went further. I still ask my self why i didn't pushed things but i guess i was just too embarrased by the situations. To this day, about 4 years later, i still smell their panties if i am over at their place.

In those 4 Years my father found a new girlfriend and she moved to our place together with her daughter, same age as me. She wasn't good looking maybe 5/10 but her body was nice.
A few months later i started hooking up with her, but she was very childish and i got basically cockblocked by her embarrasment. she even thought that masturbation would be gross. She teased me many times with stuff like humping me a bit or pushing my face between her legs, but everytime i wanted to go further she went back and told me to stop. i knew it made her wet because once she went into the shower after teasing me again and i smelled her panties afterwards and they were wet.

This was around 2 years ago. Today she had a bunch of boyfriends for short durations and noticeable many female friends over. One of them lived at our place for about 2 weeks and it was like wet panty heaven for my panty fetish. anyway i looked trough her room and found condoms, lube and dildos under her bed. One of the dildos was a double ended one. the look and imagination of her having sex with her female friends gave me and instant boner.
I found her lingerie stash, everything in a big box. I went trough it and got turned on to the max. i just had to try them on so i wore a pair of stockings with a string and a corset like top. i had the feeling to have the largest boner in my life so far and i went further, i kept wearing the stuff, got into my shoes and jacked and went out with our dog for a walk. (Little note: my parents are on vacation for a few weeks and i stayed home alone) It was already dark and i live in a rather quiet place. At this time almost no one is on the streets. My dick was building a little tent under my jacket the whole time and i had to dodge two people but i came back home without beeing seen. (atleast i hope so) I sat down in the lingerie and started fapping. It was an impressing orgasm but not the best i had so far.

Now to the gay stuff:

I have a friend that i know since preschool. he was my best friend for a long time and after puberty we started to do some "experiments". We basically had anal sex everyday after or even while we are in school. It was almost always me fucking him because i hated the feeling of it. I started trying that stuff with dildos i found, mentioned above.
I slept over at his place or he was at my place and we would always watch porn or do some roleplay. sometiems one of us even prentended to be a girl. Our last session was around 1 month ago. he was home alone and we had some fun with his sexdolls, but we ran out of lube so the sex was literally a pain in the ass. we stopped it and continued sucking each other off instead. I like giving blowjobs but i hate cum.
We even played a few games like hide & seek and the one who gets found within 2min must strip one piece of clothing off.
We explored the room of his milf (maybe in the late 30's. pretty nice body, blonde etc) and found some anal beads, handcuffs and a strapon. That thing was huge, he tried fitting it but it was too big.
At the end he fucked me with the help of the rest lube and spit and he came in me. Since he always looses his mood in and instant, i had to fap with his pockedpussy.

A few days later he was over at my place and we basically did the same stuff expect that i sucked him off and he came in my mouth. i went to work later, still with the feeling of his dick in my butt.

Then there is this other guy who i know since highschool.
We used to be good friends and we did normal stuff except that we fapped together to porn sometimes.
We once had this girl who was showing off on the cam and we sent her some dickpics of us. she continued to fap to them and my friend said what i would give him if he would suck my dick. i said idk and he started to open my pants and suck my dick.
I knew where this was going to i started to give him a handjob while hes doing it and damn is cock was like triple the size of mine, even though he was only a year older.
He seemed to like sucking it because he did it alot in the next months, maybe even a year. i dont remember. then there was this one night. i was sleeping over at his place and he was home alone. he played some games and then he went out of the room and came back wearing stockings and other lingerie and even a latex corset from his mothers friend. she was living at their place for a bit because her husband kicked her out.
We did some roleplay and i proceeded to suck and fuck him. after i came gloryously in his ass, i continued to suck him off, because he didn't liked the feeling of fucking me. It was the first time someone came in my mouth and it wasn't that bad as i expected it to be. The warm and salty taste still surprised me a bit so i spit it out and made him laugh.
After that we didn't really do anything anymore because i had a girlfriend then (mentioned above, the 5/10) and later he got one himself.

So this is basically a confession about my dirty adventures i had so far. I felt like i should share it with someone.