I keep wishing i could let go of my inhibitions ever since i spoke to a guy on toe who just didn't think gays as people. He thought me like a toy, his mirage didn't have enough sex so he wanted any faggot he meet to get fucked by him, he just thought them and me as a toy. Refused to even get tested.
I sometimes regret that I told him no and blocked him. I just want to let go and let any man fuck me as hard as they want, to be a toy or object for anyone. He lived near, and wanted to handcuff me to the hotel's bed if we met up. I just imagine what could've happened, being fucked over and over, he was even into cbt so maybe he'd batter my balls without me being able to defend myself. I wish i could find him again and apologize, but the rational side of me keeps making me not do this despite how much i just want to be a whore not even caring about protection for anyone to use in any way they want.
