I am born male.
I truly feel alone and afraid.
Mid 50's and still anytime there is interest in me I am placed in the same two boxes be it any gender or how one wishes to be seen.

Females so far lean to me being alpha/Dom or beta/sub and in all cases told I am to provide for them in all ways.

Males are kinda the same.

Trans are same except for one person who I wish did get the job and move here (it was talking about the area I live in that in time included watching tv on the phone together and as close as one can that way).
We had so much in common and she got and was fine with how being white and not around many people told her I feared messing up not knowing if I had learned any bad ways of being or thinking by years of growing up with all that goes on in the south. She laughed and said already I so kind that she assumed If I did anything it would be small and a simple goof and she would guide me as I was a keeper. If we had got together, she said she was who she wanted to be and would not change. We were open and just blunt. She was a woman with a dick that worked. I was so sweet it did not matter how when we did share our self with each other the way we did. She wanted me to be at ease and we would figure it out. She did ask me to consider all the ways we could. We talked about it. It would have worked as we both (for the pleasure of the other) wanted slow foreplay,kissing,touching,masturbation,oral,anal finger and toying and anal both ways.
She would help me get clean and said she knew how to treat her man and keep him very happy. She wanted me to let her care for me and please me in any way I ever had dreamed and new ways we found. She could hear on the phone my breath and voice sound like my heart was pounding.
We knew what we looked like and at the paper she worked at I could verify the pic she sent was her :)

With her there was no alpha/beta/Dom/sub... That was what we both found so great about what was going on with us. We would guide each other and she was upfront that she was a giving person wanting to give me pleasure and make me happy. She told me to be open as she never would be like others had I told her of....

I told her I wanted to please her too. I was a giving lover and if it was ok then at any time I may feel the urge to cuddle, hold, want to touch her and fondle her and just melt away doing that. I also did not fear just out of the blue giving oral and swallowing or sharing a kiss if that was ok. She was the same and told me we would be little bunny rabbits cuddling alot then.

She told me their would be times she would want to watch me as I gave anal and she wanted me to only do it in ways it felt the best for me and cum freely, she take care of everything. With her and how she was I told her I wanted her to do the same. Being equal and not into all the who takes from who and all that, we were free to do anything we felt be it for us or the other or together....
That is so hard to find and why I wish someone had not just change their mind and give the job to someone else... (being local I could keep up with what was going on at the paper and it seemed odd how it all went to someone who in the end got fired...
She would have been great there and in my life...

I guess the point is inside I have emotions and love not shown like males in porn and what many seem to want.
I find I am like many vids and pics of females who love each other and show it with care and much warmth but no domination or degrading for ones pleasure.

After so many years of being told my place would be this and that, She was of same soul as I am.

She had to go far west of even where she was to get the same better job. I was happy for her but still dream of what so far no one else is.....

I keep it to myself as It has been made clear from others idea of who I should be that I would be used or hurt. I wait for someone who is like her and also like her, finds interest in the same things I think of that I favor here. People have truly had hate just because I am pansexual or in short, If shown love and cared for as I dream then I can love anyone as long as they have real love for me.

I have wrote before how I respect all who respects others and truly care and their actions back that up.
I wrote how with all the harm in the world being done to others that I do not understand why so much open hate is shown to others here when that type of "play" should be between them and who wants it and not someone they do not even know....

I wrote that as it seems nothing I say is defended or supported who ever it is about and how truly nice I mean it about the pic or vid or post...
When a stranger just blocks you and you never have said a thing or they write you with hate and degrading words or attack your posts the same way it just makes someone like me so afraid and I just leave everyone alone keeping out of their way...

Please do not take this next part in a bad way. It is based on a real post and what I would think if it could be trusted.

A gay father has a son who is afraid of people like I am and seem to have been beat and so on at a young age as I did by others my age in school.

Seems they all have much in common with me so that would have been a good start.

I am over 50, the son is over 40, the father and his husband are early 60s.
The son is a full vers. ad the father is a vers top and his husband is a vers top.
They have the means and wish to find someone with much in common with their son who is very giving and they do not want taken advantage of....

The son and they talked... He is ok if the person they find becomes in bond married to him and them.
The son is not huge and that is fine with me. He has the same issue as no one is freely full vers and giving but not a sub.

His size with my help WOULD make me cum anal only. He is 3". And yes I would want to please him too and find what makes him cum from anal only.

That is just anal... All other ways above with the transgender I spoke of I think he would like too.

What the son talked about to them is if they could love that person as he did then chances are his size would not be an issue (as I said it would not for me)...

I would if real love be open to a real loving bond with all of them.
The father was a virgin when married his wife and then divorced and got the son. The only other IS his husband he is with now and they all are clean (and think of it, They would not risk their son or them self so it makes sense they wish someone who would not and has not taken risks or cheat as an option for all of them).

To have three people who care and love you and take care of you as they listed is like a family but also allows deeper connections and bonds.

In that setting, I could be as dirty as my inner desires dream.
They do not seem to do anything with the son so I assume I could be with the son or when them. The son can watch of that is what they want or what ever.
If I am in the middle and that's ok then I have no issues with what is ok with them all.

They say they and their son in private are more feminine than males and hope the other is also.

In that setting for sure of giving to each other, A few dreams I have some nights I would like to try.

One is they fondle and kiss me all over, play and suck my nipples. They slowly anal play till I am slick and ready on my own. They slowly penetrate me little bits at a time. When all is smooth they make love till they get to their edge and then swap.
I would like them to do this as long as they can and see how many times they can make me orgasm from anal only.
When we all are about given out, I want them to orgasm in me and we cuddle.

Another is I am in the middle giving anal and getting it.
Many ways that can go.
If the one giving cums then they swap.
I edge for my pleasure as they swap till I cum.

Another is before anal, we enjoy oral many times till we all have given to each other.
Then if they are still turned on by my desires, They swap one giving oral as one gives anal.
When I cum the one swallows and sucks hard as I tell the one giving anal to take me.
After they cum, swap places.

There are times it would be nice for any of them to fine me, show me their clean hole, suck me hard and tell me to take them.

If they are ok with their son and my lover being there, Then I have a special idea :)

My lover and I 69...
As we nurse on the others cock, the others give me anal swapping and we do that as long as we can as many times we can cum as we can.

It is funny I am not ever going out and doing all I dream... But I hope someone who is like minded and loves in ways as I do sees this and will do anything to care for and love me for all I am to and for them for all they do and give to me.

Well... That's all for now... If you are someone who hides and wishes for me as I am like you, Well, Keep looking here as you can find me if you will give and do anything for me. Hire a PI or what ever :)
Just be ready to prove your not like what I have run into on my own so far.... I look and try but domination is all they want to do to me or make me a slave....

It is not that I can not be sexual and be that like crazy... I just will not be ab_used ( I can not believe the bot banned the way I used that word. Soon all will be banned sadly), harmed, degraded ,placed at risk or used.

To real loving souls who would move the world for me, protect me, care for all of me, wish to make me happy and content forever..... My mind opens to much more than many. No harm or such.... But I will only say this... A woman is not the only being who can be attracted to a being whose loyal and will protect with all they are and show real love. As long as it is with love and care, So much is open to dream.....

If this draws hate, that backs what I have said. I have done nothing to anyone.

I wish with all of my heart, all of my mind, all of my body and all of my soul, that I could spend my days being a pnp, bareback only, no-jerking off allowed, gang-feeding, gang-fucking, gang-breeding and gang-seeding, insatiable, sword-swallowing, deep-throating, sperm-swallowing, cum-guzzling, balls-draining, suck-slut cock sucker and willing and wanton cum-dump anal whore, spreading my small, firm ass cheeks wide and completely and totally surrendering my naturally tight, steamy asshole for men with cocks like these to give me deep-grinding long-dicking ass-fuckings, hard-pounding, power ass fuckings and deep-impalement sperm enemas, and double-penetration ass fuckings along with double sperm enemas, by dozens and dozens and dozens and dozens of truly horse hung gay top studs like this one, day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year.

Spending my days sucking off big, beautiful cocks like these. Kissing them all over, licking them all over, running my mouth all over them, opening wide and having horse hung studs with massive, monster, extra-thick, hard, throbbing cocks like these take me by the sides of my head and fuck my mouth and throat with every hard inch of their man meat before they bury their monster cocks all the way down my throat, my soft, wet lips and warm, wet tongue wrapped around the base of their spewing and spurting cocks as they pump their loads of sweet cock cream down it and I milk them dry.

Spending my days just giving my fuck hole to these studs, letting them fuck me, one at a time, tag team or double fucking me, giving me their hard, throbbing cocks deep inside my hot little ass, fucking me hard, fucking me deep, giving me the ass fucking I so need and desire. I am a nymphomaniac for big, thick, hard, throbbing cocks and I love spreading these small ass cheeks of mine and surrendering my asshole to horse hung studs who will give me the ass fucking that I was born to get before they bury every inch of their massive, monster cocks like these deep inside my freshly fucked asshole and pump a huge load of hot sperm deep inside of me.

Yes, if I could have one wish cum true? It would be to spend my days, being a pnp, bb, njoa, gang fed and gang fucked little suck slut and anal whore for dozens upon dozens of truly massive, monster horse hung studs with big, beautiful cocks like this one.

its been a few days with no dick or pussy and i was going nutts. so i said fuck it and went to the beach. i know there is at least dick there. so i loaded my mini bike in the back of the truck and hit the beach drove down about 4 miles parked stripped down and out on my G string and started riding. got less than a mile down i saw a young guy and girl in pink g strings. so i stopped to say hi and find out there ages and turned out they was twins 26 you can tell hes a flaming gay and most times flaming turns me off. i told her she can legally go topples on the beach but if cops show up she needs to make sure they have bottoms on. they both said they knew but they just got there. so i parked and we was talking and their parents disowned him for being gay and they moved in together. then i ask if they smoked and yes they did so i broke out a joint.
then she opened up and told me she has tried to turn him straight she even gave him blowjobs and pussy but he still likes dicks in his ass. so i said incest and she said yep. and the higher she got the more she talked. they both short like 5'3 but chubby like 150 pounds. so i ask has she ever seen him get fucked and she said fuck yea and i like to watch him scream like a bitch. i laughed and ask do you ever get fucked in front of him and she said yes all the time.
so i had one more question before i made my move. whats the strangest thing you have done together with another person. she said she they was double sounding with each other and the sounding took went all the way into his penis and had to call a friend to come help get it out. LOL
i mean this girl was so wasted and telling everything. she even told me that her uncle took her cherry pussy and ass and mouth. and he also took her bothers anal cherry. she didn't tell me their age at the time but it wasn't long after that they got disowned and moved out of the house.
my dick was rock hard and my g string was useless and he kelp looking at it so i told him go ahead and enjoy. she took ahold of it and cupped my balls and pointed my dick to his face and he made love to my dick with his mouth. then she took over and they both are the best dick suckers i have ever had. and i have had alot. i ended up fucking all 3 of he holes and both of his. and he licked my balls ass as i ate her pussy and ass. i was on the beach by 10 am and didn't leave until dark. we all exchanged numbers and we live with in 30 miles of each other so i'm sure we will meet up again soon. she works in the town where i live and he stays at home. i'm thinking of calling her when i'm done here and tell her she can drop him off here while she works and picks him up on the way home. and see where that goes. sorry i didn't give their names but not sure what they are.

Are there any Dominate gay men in the United States that are looking for a live in submissive anal bottom?
I am white, red hair, green eyes, 5’10” 250 pounds, willing submissive. I would love to be taken and broken to my owners will.
My only known limit is scat.
I love bondage, rough sex, golden showers, spanking, giving oral, receiving anal, and just about everything else I have tried with a man.
I live outside of Cincinnati Ohio.
I don’t care where I live, or what age or race you are.
I just want a Master/Daddy that will use me for their pleasure with little to no reguard for mine.

to my surprise craigslist still works if you know where to put the add. Sunday. i put a add up looking to clean pipes and have a tank that needs filled. not even sure i got the page closed before i got a email. oh i was out of town also and i told him where i was staying and if the door was open i was there. sure enough in about 20 minutes i was setting in a g string watching 2 big dick faggots hammering a fun size young man. when i heard someone yell out is anyone here. i looked at the door and said come on in.
we made small talk for just a minute and i told him what i was trying to do for my goal and i think it turned him on because he busted a nut in me whit in a couple minutes. but he didn't stop he just kelp pounding for another 20 minutes or so. he wasn't large but he damn sure knew how to fuck a ass.
he laid beside me and slowly stroked me then popped up and said i'm going to help you hit your goal.
he called a friend and told him to get over here and bring so and so and anyone else that wants to come. it wasn't long a car showed up it had 5 guys and one OMG HOT older woman guessing her early 50 but she was hot.
i'm a faggot/ gay or bi male what ever you want to call me. but i hate flaming Gays. and there was one of them there. but it was ok. if his dick would get hard i needed the count. so i didn't care.
as soon as everyone was inside we closed the door and the woman. i don't know her name or any of the guys names but Teddy at least that what he said his name was. anyway the guys lined up and she was strip them one by one. then she started with the smallest dick pulled it to my ass and guided it in then she would stroke my dick and his balls until he popped his load.
all dicks was between 5 1/2 to maybe 7 nothing big but they was all young and could fuck forever. as the first guy pulled out she would take the next dick and put it in again. until everyone of them took their turn. then she started fingering my ass and the next thing i knew she said damn i have 4 fingers up your ass i bet if i try i can get my fist in you. i told her i bet she can to and go ahead. oh it wasn't long and she had her fist in a guys ass for the first time in her life. i walked her through what to do and how and the next thing she knew she was almost elbow deep and she never got undressed and her jeans was soaking wet.
i found out the flaming has never been with a woman before so i told him to remove her pants and panties. oh she already pulled out of my ass and we all washed up. so i made him strip her naked and damn her tits was real and still firm. legs a little thick but still very nice.
i made her lay on the bed legs up pussy wide open and i made the flam lick her pussy and click and finger her both holes. and she came and he didn't stop he kelp on licking. then we all saw he was getting a hard on again so a friend pulled his dick to her pussy and put the head in. then grabbed his ass and pushed. we all made him lick her tits neck and just before he came we made him pull out and shoot it in her mouth. most of the time we wouldn't care where a person cums but this was a first for him with a woman on everything. she didn't want to do anal so none of us got lucky there. but every load that was dumped in her i got to be the lucky one and clean her out.
it was a fun day but made for a long drive home Monday. but i told them i will be back at the end of the month for 4 days and they need to start setting things up because i really need to hit my goal. they said i will have at least 15 different loads by the time i return. plus repeats. i cant wait.

Something I will never understand...
All the years I have seen so many types out there and was shocked there are some who on their profiles on the internet truly ask to be done like this and .... worse....

I have seen people want to be own,used,hurt,give all their rights over to another,be a servant,give all that make and own, they will care for and pleasure non stop who treats this this way.....

Why is it so hard to find others who would give and do all and take very good care of someone and all the above EXCEPT they just with to be truly loved,cared about,thought of,share interests,explore what's out there to share pleasure with who they place above them who sees all they do without expecting anything in return as truly amazing and brings emotions to their loyal love that makes a safe place to talk and share all ideas and dreams with no fear to see what can be shared and loved together.

I can not see treating someone making my life stress free and so amazing bad at all.
By all they do and with trust just hand over to me I must be loyal to them and do what's right with all of their being they give me....

By things I have seen and read how someone will just give them self at any time for the pleasure one the one who they are forever with, Why Is that not so amazing it drives the one getting all this to give love back in thoughtful ways?

I am not happy on the words next, it more of the actions....
Someone who would worship me,my body,anything I dream them to and they truly love to do so with all their being would bring a giving side of me out I can feel safe to show and do.

Take say a total submissive man for a dominate woman.
I have seen the men say they will work and care for everything and she controls it all.
I read where some say they need someone to guide and help them make choices but turn it all over to her.
The guys I read of are sweet,shy,loving,giving and even if they are huge it does not change their soft,warm,sweet,giving nature.

What ever the race or gender who is like that....
Why only for dominate people who returns all they do with degradation and pain that shows like the pic?

I read dominate posts of their life and all that's done for them including any nasty and kinky thing one can think of to please them as ordered.....

Why could some one just be asked if they would do something and be that amazing at it that someone like me wants to show I care too and show it in return.

Could someone trade the hurt and shame in for me wanting to hold them close with my arms around them and truly have emotions for them they can feel and see?

Could they be shocked and happy I out of the blue sit next to them and just softly touch them and want to try and be so soft it feels nice where I glide my touch and hands?

If I patted my lap and they sit on it, I slowly put one hand open to cover as much of their pubic skin as I can and touch their cock or clit (yes a true one and not a dick) having light pressure like a hug while my other traces light light air many places on their body?

What if all they pleasure they do like give oral just because I am there and they want to please me brings the safe feel I am giving to someone freely and not to a dominate who takes and never gives?
What if someone as amazing as they are brings a urge to do the same for them?

What if the normal they want is for me to close my eyes as they slowly give oral and keep me on edge till I cum and keep going swallowing it all and licking my shaft and all clean and slowly touch and off and on give oral and make me cum many times even dry cum...

What if that giving and not taking makes me ask if they can move to where I can also give oral or touch them in their pleasure areas also?

If they normally smile and ask I let them please me then I would want so bad to please them too...

They could see it in my emotions...

I would try and see if they wanted oral just out of the blue any time too...

But I need them to at times let me please them as they please me.

Doing for me from love and their needs and wants builds mine to feel the same to them.

Some times they could see in my pleasure I was also sad. They should always ask if they see something in me like that...
In this case I would tell them I truly want to share love with them as they are so giving and amazing..
I feel bad I can not give to them at the same time....
I hope they see I have real care and feelings for them....
I hope they let me...
I would love 69 with someone so great.
I would love to pleasure them too.
I would love for them to be in my lap my arms around them and touching them all over wanting them to relax and love all I am doing for real and never faking it.

Say it is a male or trans who never wants to change having a penis.
Say by being so giving as I find submissive's can be to others that I feel safe to let them do something that alone I have found arousing and know I can trust them to lovingly care for my body.

I ask they slowly clean all of me while touching in a way to give pleasure and they clean me out in a way giving me pleasure... Then slowly shave my pubic area while gliding a soft hand checking for stubble and working to make me smooth with love... The touch I feel when I do that makes me hard and my skin starts to tingle where touched and feels so good.

They then do the same to the balls...
My hair is thin there and can bee so soft and smooth when shaved and have places that tingle if lightly touched even of my balls are being held in my hand snug and gliding fingers in the middle and all over.

Then the taint area..
Touch there has areas that feel great too...

Then the area I protect the most and only deep trust can bring me to let them shave there (this is after cleaning out at the start) also and feeling the touch as they play and see how my body reacts...

They care for the skin in all the areas and use what ever keeps the skin soft and nice....

If time was taken and done with so much love and care I will be so badly ready :)
Might even see old-cum (I hope they like to touch and suck their finger my old cum as that's a turn on.)

I hope doing all that aroused them and they are so hard seeing I could cum with a gust of wind... :)

If they ask if they can give anal... A firm YES would always be what I would say :)

If they go slow and we can feel our bare skin touching as they are in my warm and moist (and might be getting tighter) anus and I cum and they feel my orgasm and it turns them on more, I want them to let me know when I get control over my anus how I can grip to feel even better to them.
They were so great for caring for may areas and pleasing me that I need to give pleasure and need them to orgasm in me as I do all I can to being the best feelings I can to their making love to me...

I would always like when they orgasm that they go as long as they can and when they know they can not much more then slide in more and try to stay in me as my warmth around them they feel as they contract to try and stay hard..

I hope I can feel them :)

If they get hard again I want them to go again...and as many times as they can...
I hope to orgasm many times but I am giving my anus for pleasure for all they do for me.

I will never be giving to an alpha or Dom that does as so much porn shows like that's the only way...

I am not submissive and will not be taken from.
I am different.
My best friend says with a smile I am like her but sweet.. I am her equal and inside me is some rare form of a dominate female bisexual like her (shes bi but knows I am pan and can love anyone who loves me greatly).

I have no clue so I will go with what she says... :)

I have limits....
But some I may bend if done with care.
Scat is a hard line with that bend......

Say if during cleaning and they WILL NOT smear it anyplace and keep it away from my sight and local to the anus area... Well.... If it would please them then they can give anal when I have not been cleaned out fully....

I want them to be happy and makes out bond even stronger and unbreakable...

Just care and keep as clean as possible and clean me well outside and in after please :)

I hope they love letting me feel the warmth of giving them anal...
Sadly I need it clean as I have fears I somehow over come and truly want to give anal as it is...
I hope being giving that out of the blue they run to me with nothing on and smiling, take me by the hands and lead me to our soft bed and play area :)

They undress me and do all they can to get me hard fast....
They then get on the bed and tell me they got cleaned up and need me to take them...
They bend over and pull their anus open and know see it like that and so clean turns me on greatly...

I never want to hurt so I slowly slide my way in bit by bit till fully....

I want them to guide me so I do not hurt them...
Faster? harder? how can I make love and not hurt....

As they let me know I make love to them and after orgasm try contracting to stay hard.
My wish is to get hard again and make love in a way they orgasm....

There are times I want them to not just want me to take them in a loving way...
I want to be on my back and they slowly take me in to them....
They pull their anal lips open and sit on my pubic area getting all of me that can penetrating then :)
Once all their weight is sitting on me I ask they move forward to find how far they can and keep me firmly in and will not pop out by moving foreword too far... I can help guide them.... Once they find how far forward and back thay can go then I want them to adjust for THEIR pleasure.
I want them to ride me this way for their pleasure...

If someone says you can not feel pleasure if you want them to do it all in a way it feels best for them then your silly... A dick can get pleasure from anything and that's just how it works :)

To see them feeling pleasure, to have them put my hands where they need them and do what feels great to them... To feel them get tight as time passes, to see their body and all react to what we are sharing would make my heart pound :)
I want them to feel pleasure from anal...
I want to give this just as they give to me...
I want them to edge if they wish on the edge of cumming...
I will see the old cum and as they have not given anal to me yet, I will take the old cum with my finger and suck it off and return for more.....

I want to feel and see their body...
I want to last..
I need to...
Sometimes I will ask if they want me to hold the tip tight to keep their cum inside and I hope they do at times.....

I need to and would love to feel them tight and need to not move as much to keep me in...
I need to feel their orgasm around me....
I want to see the pleasure in their body and eyes....

When they have fully finished our share orgasm and they wanted me to hold the tip closed...
(note... I never said I had to cum when I want them to be pleased by anal..)
They slowly lift off and take my fingers place holding their cum tightly in their cock....

I can now take that clean cock and place my fingers around and push the cum back so they can let go....

I take the head into my mouth and let go and swallow and also between their legs milk all the cum to the tip as I suck hard and I lick the head and under the head taking all they have till dry....

They also do that for me when the other way...

Add all this and the other deep desires and ideas into a normal life of shared likes and anything we do together and have a bond no one can touch.....
I want a full relationship and shared interests and all they give me to have I need them to be equal in what goes on and the best ideas are followed....

I want it to be US,shared,together, for each other,always.......

So.....
Why being so many types out there of all races and genders who call them self many things and place them self always below and gives all they have..........
Why not someone out there all that but needs someone like me to be submissive to?

Am I not worth all they would give others?

I am over 50 and have been the rock for family and all in need so I find I have nothing to give but what I am...

I know I can never be used or dominated or done as I see others done...
If my best friend treated me as she does her gays and girls then we would NOT be best's in the first place.

She needed someone and I was there to give my heart and shoulder to.
Never had she needed anyone or cried in pain.
No one had ever cared and so in her life she said she just is what she is but I broke past that.

I am her equal and she is mine...

If in this world so many things can be as they are then why not someone to be my mate I dream of and would fit in where I fail and I fit in where they fail.. You know.. We complete each other fully...

I can only feel a safe place for my nature with someone who never take advantage of it or let harm happen to it...
I hide many emotions and feelings so no one can use them...
I truly need someone like me...
Great love,compassion,respect for ones rights and self,feelings for others,smart,imagination,strong will to now sway and loyal to who they made the choice to be with and keeps that choice through anything and adapts to what ever...

AND never picks a side who would not support them if they are good souls ONLY because of extreme dogmatic ideas and so on.

I am sad my belief has been used to make excuses for hate...
I went on my own and looked deep at every page and in order of history not how it is printed...
Please do not dump all I say before thinking first....
If seen in true light, It shows I am not them...

I am Christian...
That means the last word on all is Jesus and not the Bibles history...
He care for people and broke old laws.....
I looked at all on my own ant let his acts make my morals...

I am my own faith and will rub so called ones backing hate the wrong way...
He protected a prostitute from Bible law...
That should have been the first sign some things were off that man thought he heard and should be clear is not should have done..
Some feels added..
In one place someone said making good on doing something to another with gold is fine... No way..
Can not buy your way to being moral and free of doing wrong...
That has to be bull...

All can be found if one looks....

I will not risk others...
I will do whats right..
But do not see me as others...
All who do no harm and do not step on others rights are fine with me what ever race or gender...
Your actions are what will change my mind...

Any being who will love me forever how I wish and how I love them has a chance :)

I am 28 Married from the UK and my confession is that I am Bi.

It all started in my teens, My friend and I used to wank together a lot, When my parents were out he would come round and we watched porn together whilst we wanked.

I had slept with his sister on numerous occasions, She often used to hang around with us and she was there when many times when we wanked, If she was in the mood she would let me play with her tits and sometimes have a shag.

If my parents were home in the summer holidays the 3 of us would go to a quiet spot behind the local village hall and wank, the 2 of us would always sit in differant places when we first started out - But my friends sister always encouraged us to sit together, I am not sure if it turned her on the thought of us being close or if she used it as an excuse to watch him, as she could say she was looking at me?

As time went on we would wank more often when she was not around, We would sit very close and start at each others cocks whilst we did it, I would hold my cock out for him to stare at whilst he wanked then he would look into my eyes and stop wanking, I then stared at his cock whilst I wanked.

I knew we both wanted more but did not know how to approach the subject, So one day when he came round I told him I liked looking at his cock when I wank, I went on to tell him it turned me on, He got funny about it and sat in the bathroom to wank that day.

Some time later we were walking across the fields to a hay barn where we used to go a lot in the summer holidays to wank, On the way he reminded me of the time I had told him I liked to see his cock, I lied and said I could not remember saying that, Then stuck to my lie no matter how much he tried to get me to admitt it, So he changed the subject and told me that he knew his sister had been fooling around with her best mate (who he had slept with previously)

We agreed that what they were doing was wrong as they had the option to sleep with us but chose "gay" sex instead, The conversation turned to men fooling around - we agreed that if the men in question could get sex from women and still did it they would be "gay" and out of order, However if those men could not get any pussy then it was understandable.

We kept talking about how it was better to have someone stroke your cock for you then do it yourself, After a few minutes he said he was gagging for a wank and I agreed,

We hurried to the hay-barn and got about whipping out our cocks, He sat higher up on the bales of hay then me and I faced close to him so his cock was close to my face, I storoked my cock and with my heart pounding really fast asked him if he would like me to stocke his cock, To my relief he said yes, I wrapped my hands round his cock for the first of many many times, after a minute he reciprocated,

The first time was not really that enjoyable, But it now allowed us to acknowledge out urges and carry on this behaviour, The following night we met up behind the village hall and I asked if he wanted to try sucking each others cocks, He said he did and As i stared to sit down on the grass and lower my jeans he stood over me with his huge bulging cock and I instinctively took hold of it, Feeding it into mouth mouth.

Having his massive bell-end in my mouth was such a turn on, But after not very long he asked If I wanted to fuck him, I took his cock out of my mouth and said I would love to.

As he took off his jeans and boxers I lowered mine right down to my ankles, He positioned himself in doogy and streatched his ass cheeks open, I told him to suck my cock so that it would go in easier, He then said I should lube his ass, I got down behind him and started lapping at his ass crack - It felt sooo nice

After I had got myself positioned behind him, I pushed my cock right up to his ass, It did not go in and rode up over his back, I then tried again but held it this time and guided it in, As my cock slowly went into his ass I asked him if he was ok, He said yes and started wanking himself.

After a minute or so he told me to stop as he didnt want me to cum inside him, He had always cum much quicker then me when we wanked and i tried to tell him I could hold out for longer, But he didnt want to risk it.

We wanked all over the grass and then I played with his cum inbetween my fingers.

we cleaned up and went home our separate ways, but continued to meet uo at every opportunity, We tried anal a few more times both ways round but soon realised our favourite thing to do was suck each other off.

I must have sucked his cock and had him suck mine over 200 times until we were almost into our 20's and I moved away from the village, But the very first times stick in my head more then the rest, I can still imagine the touch, taste and smell of him.

Good times!

CONTINUED FROM PART 1
AFTER LGBT PARADE, I GET INVITED TO THE PARADE AFTER PARTY,

Quick refresher, LGBT was happening, i got invited to the after party, by a friend Dave i had not seen for nearly y years we had spoke and texted each other, He married a woman Clare who i had dated a little while before they got together, Dave at the time they married had no idea i had dated her, there was a guy in between that got her pregnant this guy was only here in the Uk around 3 months, Dave has brought the child now 28 year old girl Lisa up,
Now it was Lisa's idea for him to invite me, she doesn't live at home with mum and dad, who also have 3 other kids 2 boys and a young teenage girl
Lisa shares a 4 bedroomed house with her 2 close school friends Rachel and Kim (who is half English half Chinese) its her house these 3 share daddy bought it 4 her apparently Rachel and Kim are out and out lesbians plus they are legally married to each other and both was complete men virgin's

Dave and me got dressed up in women's under garments. all 7 of us got a taxi into the city centre did a small pub crawl met others before getting to the party pub the Flag in Worcester UK, I Paul actually live Nearly 40 miles away in Gloucester UK. I was picked up and was supposed to be stopping at Dave and Clare's house
whilst in this party Pub the Flag, Lisa took me into the uni-sex toilet and gave me a blow job, later Clare did similar,
I found out Dave and Clare had split up and was going through a divorce, but carried on sharing there house so as not to upset the 3 younger kid's
I also found out Dave is accentually Gay, he left me , his wife Clare stranded no way to get home or get in there house as he had left carrying Clare's handbag purse over his shoulder round his neck, all her money was in there plus the house keys.
we landed up going and Staying with Lisa Rachel and Kim , long story short now, we all landed up having sex with each other i was given a blow job by all i had Virginal and anal sex with all 4 taking Rachel and Kim's anal and virginal virginities,
Clare landed up driving me home as Dave was to drunk then next day,
Lisa came along for the ride, Clare said she wanted to see me more.
Lisa said she also wanted me and would be back on the Tuesday after.

THIS IS WHERE PART 2 STARTS

True to her word Lisa did turn up at 5pm as she said, we had a bite to eat and some drinks, then we retired to my bedroom only because Lisa had bought a DVD with her to show me, and i am the only one with a DVD player and its in my bedroom, before she put the DVD on she asked if i had a shower could she freshen up as she came straight from work, she is a care nurse, if i remember she said she arrive after work Tuesday and stay till Thursday teatime.

I pointed her in the direction of the shower, gave her a big fluffy freshly washed beach towel/sheet, Lisa stripped off giving me a quick flash of her well toned petite body, then quickly covered up, she called me from the shower asking how it worked ???? i showed her as she stood there in all her naked glory, she stood as the water began to caress the curves of her beautiful lush body, i just stood there, i heard her say what you waiting for i am not going ask get in
I was stripped naked stood next to her in a flash, i stood behind, my rather long thick cock sprang into action.
i slipped between her legs from behind as i did she put her hand down and push me between here pussy lips moving herself slowly back and forth over my cock i cupped her tits from behind she then turned around lifted her leg up which i put on my shoulder and she guided me inside her pussy, it was so hot sexy horny she just looked at me said fuck me hard i want to feel all of you inside me make me come as i was thrusting in and out fairly hard she rubbed her clit, the water was lovely and warm as it cascaded all over both of us.

it was so hot sexy she came twice in this position i had to hold her steady her as her legs began to shake as she orgasmed im a stayer normally last a long time before i cum this was that sexy horny i blew and emptied my full load deep in her womb.
we kissed for a while nice passionate snog, then we washed each other i paid a lot of attention to her pussy and ass.

we soon went to my bedroom where we lay on the towel wet drying Lisa set the DVD in motion, as it started to play she went down on me taking my cock in her mouth she did this in a position i could easily finger her pussy and ass if i wanted to,
the DVD took me by surprise, it was a recording of me and the 3 girls at Kim's house, they had edited it and cut Lisa's mum Clare out the recording,
I asked Lisa what the fuck why was this recorded, why had they cut Clare her mum out, Lisa said shut up carry on watching as there is a message for you at the very end, then she went back to blowing me i was very nearly hard again as she licked my balls and sucked on my cock i was fingering both her asshole and pussy Lisa loved this as she was moving her ass in motion with my fingers going in and out of her.

Then the message came all 3 girls was sat together naked legs wide open showing me there pussies, Rachel and Kim both kissed Lisa, and sucked each others nipples, Lisa spoke first saying she was on a mission from the day she had found out i had fucked her mum and her mum had told her how great i was in bed and what a massive long thick cock i had, from that day it was her mission to find out for herself and i hadn't disappointed her,
Rachel and Kim spoke together and said they had never been with any man before and they would never go with another as they are strictly lesbians, but they will make an exception for me as i had taken the pussy and ass's man virginity, and they loved the way i fucked them and made them feel so special. The Kim spoke alone and said she wanted me to force take her in her ass again even though she tried to fight me and it hurt because i had gone in all in one go dryish, but the pain and pleasure was unbelievably great, most intense orgasm she had ever had and she wanted me in her ass again, but not for a few weeks as i had torn her ass inside and she was seriously sore.

I just sat there in complete disbelief, mouth open, Lisa jokingly put her hand under my jaw and made out she was lifting it shut, Lisa then jumped on my cock took me in her pussy and rode me she was going crazy she was shaking but kept going raising up my whole length then dropping as quickly and hard as she could, she flooded was like a non stop orgasm she was having, i rolled her onto her back and pounded even though she was flooding soaking wet she was still tight she was moaning and gasped every time i pounded deep inside her into her i put her legs over my shoulder as i pounded real hard and deep,.
she was having serious leg shaking orgasms one after the other but wouldn't let me slow down let up no rest until i emptied inside her again, as i cam she smiled from ear to ear owwww thats soooo nice its warm i can feel you coming inside me, as she let her legs slip of my shoulders down my arms onto the bed, and she grabbed the back of my head pulled me towards her as we had the most intense passionate snoke she was trying to get her tongue down my throat, she then let me got shuffled down and took me in her mouth again cleaning mine and her cum of my cock, we lay there for 5-10 mins then she lent over looked at her phone, OMG, i got to get a move on, can i grab another shower, you got make me a nice creamy coffee,

she came down the stairs all dressed in her nurses career uniform, i nearly came in my pants she looked so sexy, she said she was sorry, but her shifts had changed she was on duty at 11pm she told me where she had to go , i said your ok for another hour that's literally 10 mins drive from my house, she calmed down and sat next to me had a few sips of her coffee and asked are you sure its that close, yes i told her out my road turn left end of that road do a flip flat ( quick rite then quick left) then you are on the road of the house you are going to, and i think the house is near the round about at the end of that road

Smiling at me as long as you are sure i can't be late, don't worry your be there for 11pm
No i actually start at 11:30 pm i am taking over from another girl who doesn't do night care, i normally get to sleep,

Lisa then took my cock out my shorts, and went down on me again soon as i was hard she dropped her pants to the floor and stepped out of them she bent over ass facing me lifted her nurses dress over her ass parted her legs i was looking at her tight asshole and her full peachy looking clean shaven pussy, looked eatable, as i reached out she slapped my hand away no you don't she said,
her hand appeared between her legs she rubbed her clit vigorously as she made herself cum it was a picture to see her peachy pussy open slightly as her juices began to flow from her, again i reached out again i was bated away she pushed her hand further back 2 fingers entered her pussy 1 went in her as, by now i was rubbing my cock, watching her finger herself was just a dream,
she was slowly backing up towards me i never really noticed was to interested in seeing her playing with herself as she got closer her hand came on my cock, she was guiding me into her, she then took me deep, and put her feet up on the sofa either side of me a she began riding me slowly raising up and hammering herself down into my groin, she got a little pace going and i began to help by thrusting up to meet her, she lay back onto my chest took my hand and put in with hers on to hr clit as we rubbed together a few mins of rubbing her clit and fucking she moved my had and hers and pushed 2 of mine and her own fingers into her pussy, that's when i realised she was fucking her own ass fucking upon my cock,
as she lay back i nibbled her ear it was just to much for Lisa she orgasmed so strongly her whole body was shaking, her one leg shot out almost straight shaking furiously and she let one hell of a squirt go it was like a fountain had just been turned on i must have gone a foot in the air and 2-3 foot across the room it was that strong lasted a good 30 seconds before subsiding , i looked and my poor pet cat that was curled up fast asleep on the white bear rug , was soaking wet , it was just looking around like as if to say where the fuck did that come from,
Lisa when she settled down caught her breathe notice the poor cat, and she just kept saying ohh im sorry puss cat really sorry, she tried to stand up but dropped on to her knees being week from her orgasm squirting moment
she went on her knees to the puss cat got a hand towel that was sitting on the washing pile and dried the poor cat off cuddling her saying sorry pus cat sorry, my cat loved all Lisa's attention purring away she was,
Lisa came back said i have to finish myself off she has to go, as she made her way to the front door i held her panties up aren't you forgetting something laughing at her, i threw them to her she slipped her panties back on and was out the front door, she quickly poked her head back in asking for the directions again, then she was gone,

Shortly after my 37 year old son who i share my house with came into the front room where me and Lisa had just finished in. he smiled at me shaking his head, you lucky lucky old man, how old was she 20 no older that 25 i say dad, he wasn't far off as Lisa is 28,
he then said she must be dessy or stupid, your old enough to be her grandad, she's younger that me, but i have to say she has beautiful tits and shaven pussy,.

I has completely forgotten he was home he must have heard everything we did, he definitely seen us fucking in the front room,
he asked who she was when i told him he was stunned, tell me you are joking dad thats not they Lisa that buck toothed little ugly thing from Worcester,
yep i said, then i told him the whole story, and that Clare her mum is coming over to,
as i said that my mobile went it was a message from Lisa's mum Clare can i ring her urgently,

But that's another story, Part 3 to be continued soon

This is a shortish true story. It's about a close mate's bitchy wife and how my mate taught her a lesson she will probably never forget in a hurry.
I know I will never let her forget what happened. What happened at my house, and I have CCTV home security cameras fitted in all the rooms in my house, except the bathroom, and in my den, I have cameras in all 4 corners and a revolving 360-degree camera in the centre of the room hidden in the ceiling fan lights.
My friend had asked if we could have a guys ' night get together, and it was arranged so we could have a few beers and some snacks while we watched a Premier League football match. If I remember, it was Liverpool v Man City, after we would have a game of cards, my wife and my mate's wife would be the hostesses for the night, bringing drinks etc, now my mate had told me and my wife that he was pissed off with his wife being a bitch, bad mouthing his mates arguing with the neighbours and basicaly making his life miserable, my wife really didnt like her either, but was prepared to be nice friendly and go along with my mates plan to teach his wife a sever lesson,
He mentioned his sex life was basically non-existent, and she never let him do her in her asshole. He thought she might be cheating on him with another of our mates, and that mate might be fucking her in her ass. My wife worked in a nightclub and knew some of the doormen who could get hold of some date r4pe dr*g, stuff, ketamine mixed with some other stuff. My wife and my mate's wife would be drinking whilst being the hostesses, and my wife would put some of the dr*g in her drink. When we started to play cards, the plan was working very well, my mate's wife was getting a little wobbly, her speech a bit slurred, and there were 4 other guys, including the guy suspected of having an affair with my mate's wife. My wife kept feeding her more wine, as the card game really got going, the stakes got higher, my mate deliberately lost all his money, then he suggested his wife's clothes as a bet, the bet, as she was basically out of it, he was able to undress her without too much hassle, as you can guess he continued to lose, then he upped the bets to her body, mouth for blow jobs and ass hole to be fucked, he left out her pussy, made the excuse she wasnt protected as they were trying for a baby, everyone agreed no fucking her in her pussy, after a few more drinks my wife left us as she had done her part and didnt want to be around when my mate's wife got used,
The guy that my mate had suspected was fucking his wife out of the blue announced, he was happy there was no pussy as he was gay and only fucked asses. This came as a shock to everyone, as he was a hulk of a man and looked like a Viking warrior. His voice was very deep and masculine; my mate's wife was completely limp. After a while, she became coherent, but was still a limp ragdoll, then the fun started, she had cock from all six of us shoved in her mouth a few times, 2 at a time, deep throated she had tears in her eyes, a couple couldnt control themselves and shot there load down her throat, yhe first one to fuck her ass hole was my mate, and when he did, I understood as to why she wouldnt do anal with him, he was massive at least 9-10 inches long and really really thick
He went balls deep straight away, and he piledrove into her without mercy, one by one, we pounded her ass hole, we turned her inside out, we did spit roast mouth and asshole, we did double anal, we tried triple anal (but failed) she got anal fisted by 2 of the guys, 1 tried double anal fisting her, She endured Anal and blows jobbing for a good 3 hours, her asshole was seriously prolapsed, she must have swallowed a dozed of so cum loads, we all emptied at least 2 loads of cum in her asshole each, My wife came back in after 3 hours telling us my mate's wife had had enough, at the time my wife came back to save her my mate was in the middle of piledriving into her ass again, all got dressed and left even my mate left, his wife was left with me and my wife, and we had a little more fun, my wife got her pussy licked by my mate's wife, i was bad as i got to fuck her in her pussy and ass, then we cleaned her up put her in the spare bed, the next day my mate's wife came down the stairs walking very gingerly wide open legs, my wife told her to sit down on the breakfast stool, and we would make her a coffee and something to eat, of course she declined sitting, my wife asked her why, she said her ass hurt lots, sh whispered to my wife could she have a look, she lifted her dress bent over a little my wife got a good eye full of the prolapsed asshole, she said i should have a look as it looked real bad, i had a look and snapped a couple of sneaking photos i put a finger on her prolapse and she jumped forward screaming, i suggested she should go to the hospital, she wasnt keen on that idea, she said it would be to embarrassing and how would she explain it,
The husband, my mate, turned up an hour later. She asked what had happened, my mate told her everything,
she screamed at him Why would you do that to me, in a real bitchy way. He just stood and said you already know the answer, he had to do it to teach her a lesson. she looked puzzled, so he explained very slowly, that not only was he fed up the way she spoke to him and other fact she was a trouble maker argued with everybodu including hs mother and father, that she was nasty bitchy and spiteful,
then he said he believed she had cheated on him she never gavre him sex any more nor did she let him fuck her asshole, and everyone that was there had all fucked her asshole and mouth and came in both at least twice, and they all enjoyed her, and all hoped it had taught her a lesson and she would change the way she treated others, he then looked at her ass and began making monkey chants, he took her hand told her he was taking his little baboon ass to the hospital because she needed her ass putting back in, he was laughing his head off she was crying and in pain, she was saying sorry over and over asking all in the room for forgivness, he put her in the back seat she had to kind of lay face down with her ass in the air all the way to the hospital, she was in hospital 3 weeks and had to sit on a rubber doughnut ring it was so funny seeing her,
She did change a little, wasn't so bitchy,
I am very tempted to blackmail her to let me fuck her asshole and pussy again, but that wouldn't be nice, could affect my friendship with my mate if he found out, and if my beautiful, faithful wife found out, she would divorce me, maybe even k ill me!
What do you think I should do ?

Well it starts like this me and my wife have been swinging for about a year and we always have girls over. So one night last week my wife asked me could she have another guy and i said yeah i'm not the jealous type. so we go out and she picks up this guy he's about 6'1" tall and he's built very well. So i don't think nothing of it we been married for 17 years and I'm older he's younger. If you want to know how old I'm 40 and he's 25. so i knew she wanted to work him because I've been a little quick on the draw. And I'm not ashamed to say it but this night he comes over and we are all drinking and we smoked a little pot as well. Then we play truth or dare and I dared my wife to suck his dick and she goes down and she is sucking him and he is laughing. Then as he's laughing she pushes him back on the bed and begins to really suck his cock better than she has ever sucked my cock. I began to get a little jealous. Right as I was about to say something he grabbed her head and shove her all the way down on his cock now this guys cock isn't small my cock is 71/2 inches he's is more like nine so their is a big difference but she swallows it down. he looks at me then he begins to grab and squeeze her breast as my dick begins to rise and i walk over and start to lick her pussy slowly at first then fast then i suck her lips as he gags her on his cock then she coughs and he tells her to turn around and suck my dick . And she does it now shes sucking me like she was sucking him and my cock knows it so hard that its throbbing in her mouth and she notices now shes slurping and and sucking me very hard I'm about to pop as he shoves his cock in her pussy now when i say shove that's what i mean no sliding no working it in just rams it right in and she moans this moan i have only heard once and then her eyes close and she bites her lip as she begins to bounce back and forth on his cock with a low sexy moan now this isn't worrying me. He then asks her has she ever been DPed and she said no i have but i always wanted to be so he ask me if i wanted to try it and i was like hell yeah as he rolled her over and pulled her on top of him now my wife doesn't like anal sex so i'm kind of worried and he looks at me and say's you know how to do this right and i'm like yeah so i lube her up and i begin trying to put it in. As she turns around and tells me to just push it in so i ask are you sure. Then she just looks at me so i just shoved it in and she didn't scream or run I was baffled. Then as we began to fuck her she got so wet that it was like someone turned on a faucet. But that wasn't the weird thing the weird thing was that the entire time we were having sex he was looking at me. Then something else weird happened he reached up to grab her ass and grabbed mine and i jumped and i know my wife felt it and so did he but he didn't let go. Now I'm not gay I've never been gay and there nothing wrong with being gay but this was weird. He was squeezing and caressing my ass he even slapped it as we got into it i just forgot about it and kept on pounding my wife's asshole then she wanted to suck some dick again so we switched position he was fucking her in the ass and i was getting my dick sucked this was possibly the best night of my life then it turned weirder as he began to pound her ass harder she stopped sucking me now i'm just standing there dick in my hand with a guy looking at me so i sat down and began to watch them he moved closer so i could see everything but he was watching me like i was watching my wife then he did it he leaned in and started to suck my dick i was in shock i grabbed his head and pushed him off and my wife looked at me like i was wrong then he said what you didn't want me to suck your dick and i looked at my wife and she said yes he does isn't that right baby just not right now as he continued to pound her then she looked at me. And said your turn as she climbed on top of me and began to ride me I closed my eye just for a second and he was standing over me with her sucking his dick so i just kept my eyes closed then i was fucking her she was moaning the she began to bounce up and down very fast and hard. then my dick popped out and she grabbed it and put it back in as i was lying there her pussy got really wet. it was feeling great so i reached and grabbed for her but and it was his head he had been sucking my dick while finger fucking her ass. Now here's where i have to confess he was sucking me so good that i didn't push him off i just pulled his head down so he could deep throat my dick his mouth was so hot and wet and the way he sucked my dick i just couldn't make my self stop so he kept on sucking me until my wife joined him. now i didn't suck his dick but i also fucked him and it wasn't like i thought it would be his ass was just like a woman's asshole tight and hot and he kept it lubed up so my dick would slide in easy and my wife didn't mind but when it was all over I think she knew my head was fucked up. So the question is does it make me gay to have had a gay experience? And would i be gay if i liked it and wanted to do it again? all comments and replies to my questions are welcome Thanks.