so i've been chatting on ml on-and-off for years. well over five, maybe up to ten. i don't know exactly.

it's addictive and liberating to be so open about my kinks and interests. i usually bury them deep inside of me unless i'm with a partner who i completely trust and know will react positively to them.

but, anyway, i've had plenty of offers to hook up for some fun on ml and i always bat them away. i decline the offers without ever giving them a serious consideration. i guess i do it because i worry about my safety and i guess because i only see ml as a bit of extra fun while wanking.

that was until about three weeks ago. i started chatting to a guy on ml who really put me at ease. we just seemed to click instantly and, even better, he was only about an hour by train from me. in the height of arousal one night, we agreed to meet. we both thought i'd chicken out but i didn't. i don't know why him but this time i went through with it.

after a quick coffee and a very awkward public chat, we went back to his place. i was so nervous. so nervous i could barely speak. he said he'd never met anyone off ml before either. his place was pretty small, a little untidy, nothing too grim though. the blinds were all down and the place stunk of aftershave.

he suggested we watch some porn to break the ice. so we sat on his sofa, with a drink and just went through his favourites on his big tv. i've never seen porn on such a large screen! i'm usually on my phone or laptop at best. i don't know how long we sat watching porn. probably an hour? maybe it was the wine, maybe it was the porn but i eventually got comfortable enough to go further.

as we watched, he got his cock out. i snuggled in a little and let him grope me while he wanked to the porn. as he watched, he went inside my clothes and then i took them off for him. i felt a little lost tbh, i didn't really know what to do but i just tried to follow his lead. eventually i felt brave enough to go even further and go on my knees in front of the sofa. i sucked and i sucked him for ages. he didn't really give much feedback but i sucked him until my jaw ached and had to slow down. he wasn't even particularly hard, which was a bit disheartening. he kind of pushed me off eventually and jerked in my face. it took some super vigorous stroking but eventually he came and dribbled a little bit of cum into my mouth.

we then just kind of cuddled on the sofa for a bit. i thought he'd want more but the body language wasn't good. so i just awkwardly pulled my knickers back up, said goodbye and left him to watch porn.

he messaged me the next day. sort of apologised, said he was in a weird mood. asked to see me again. i'm not sure tho. i know he's not a crazed axe murderer now but we didn't even kiss, let alone fuck.

sorry about the wall of text. i had to get this out of my system.

In a world where there is no top/bottom/dom/sub/alpha/beta or so on.... Just fall in real love and care for all so one takes no risks or will risk anyone being real and always telling the truth. In short not this world as it is....

I would love to find out who loved me was inside and out what I am inside and feel I can never be on the outside... Inside I am a guiding and real loving soul... There has to be deep forever connections to fall in love and share our self to each other...
I am born male but left to turn into what ever my soul was by parents with open minds... I seem male in passing but found to be loving,giving,thoughtful,caring,protective (in correct ways) of others... But soft and sweet too and not anything like so called alpha take it all types...

A dominate Bi female got to know me as a friend and I am her only equal and she makes that clear to others that in they think they can be anyting but submissive to her, WRONG... I am the only one who can say no,tell her to stop and think or anything just as she can me.. We respect each other and help where the other may need a different view or know when to back away from something...

She says I need to own I am on the inside a dominate kinky woman to be cared for, pleased and worshiped as her... She showed how any gender should be to her and we talked about how many things I could not do to another...

She said thats fine. They still have to treat me as they should (then smiled hugging me and telling me or she would make them lol...)..

So I dream of someone that when alone they are the soft and loving type as I am.. Sweet and giving...
I will say her ideas turn me on to think of.. Make me think of more kink and dirty things being treated as they do her but return that how I want to as she said I could and they want me even more as I give when given to..

I guess thats why transgenders leaning feminine but will be strong for who they love and defend what they love and care for what they love deeply...
I am never a sub ever...
I am something I see no term for...
I guide and help.
I want to share and add to what we share and want the other to talk and be a real part of what we explore and find what we both like or find some common ground in how its done that makes us both need it dearly :)

As a fact and no gender or social ideas, I want so many ways to share love.
Anal both ways..
Oral both ways.
Play both ways.
Master bate (ok, speller will not accept one world.. Love tech, dont you lol) each other or help each other too...
Pleasure shared at the same time AND swap giving it.
All and no more or less of someone in any of it.

In side I am drawn to females loving each other very sweet and warm not as objects but as the most alike way of showing love that Is what my heart needs and wants to give... Not two guys tossing each other around....

I do not need hot...
Just someone who knowing all about them and we share so much is what draws us deeply to each other and our loving,caring compassion for each other and in general others drives us both to always stay in a falling in love state forever to each other...

When all said and done...

I dream if whats in the pic can ever happen...
That who is on their back got cleaned inside and just started getting me hard then got like that and told me they got clean and need means showed their anus to me with their hands in their ass making them gape a little as they relax for me to penetrate... I want to feel all as I slowly enter and feel their warmth around my cock as I go deeper...

Even if they just bend over and want me to start then, I still WILL always think of them so if they want me to shove in or what ever then they have to guide on that... I will always think of their feelings and want to do all I can as I feel pleasure to also focus on putting their orgasm before mine unless they guide me to do different...

But that is both ways... If they give anal then they need to feel as I do when I give..

Same with oral or play... To give pleasure...
If nothing is said then we without question have a need to return that pleasure to who is pleasing us.

What would be the best If I was giving anal?
To feel and see them orgasm hands free and I last as long as I can but being pleased they tell me deep and close and then grip me and tell me they need me love giving anal and do what I love the feel of the most as they see and feel all as I build to and then cum and go as long as I can stopping against them and inside as long as I can as we feel together all we feel....

What if getting?
If they could cum two times in a row every time then I would orgasm on the second if they could do that but I want them to be like me and want me to cum first....

They knowing what I wish but putting me first would make me want anal even more if they always wanted to put my feelings first and cum from just pleasure by anal when they start in me.

Just as I hope they would at times just want to give fully to me and give oral for my pleasure only or anything for mine only, I want to do the same even more if they do for me...

It would be funny with oral I think....

I can see us starting to give and find hands on ours giving pleasure as oral is being given and have to lovingly swat their had off knowing it is in fun but also knowing the other is so much wanting to give pleasure too... :)

I can see oral being any time every day if wanted..

I know I would love anal when ever it could be...

I hope they would want it and want to give it at least every day if not more...

I might even say it does enter my mind and draws me to want anal as a craving when I think of someone who loves to clean me, care for all, play and pleasure my body, LOVE to play slowly giving pleasure to my anus inside and out.
(i do not mean this as many show when this term is used...)
They are intent on making me cum even if I am worn out from orgasms....
Seeing my body react to their touch and love I hope keeps them turned on...

Seeing my old cum and taking a taste I hope drives them more...

Seeing when I am moist (yes I do get that way) and it has a mind of its own wanting their cock in to touch all the areas screaming for penetration and being made love to badly to the point it is contracting and twitching...

I truly want to have a way to see it all...
I want to see them play and all that I feel giving me so much pleasure....
Seeing them enjoy making my body react on its own and even producing slick fluid that I know I do from my play and I hope it turns them on I get wet like that :)

I want to see them as the get near my anus.
I want to see the head on my entrance.
I will try and relax so I can see the tip make its way in bit by bit as they draw out a little for my fluid to help them go deeper next slow little push...

I want to see when the rings allow them to enter and feel my lover slowly fill the area needing to feel it and see then slowly sliding in deeper till fully in...

I want to see as they adjust and slowly pull away and find the right way to give me max pleasure and hitting my p spot so well I can tell I will cum soon...

When they find the way to enter and thrust I so want to see what ever size they have (I can cum from 1 inch of a finger lol) sink into me as I feel them and feel what my anus sends in feelings of pleasure...

I hope they edge and milk a little cum to the tip that they finger up and suck off :)

I hope they love seeing and feeling how I am to being given anal in a way I love it and want more and more...

If they truly want me to crave anal then they do all they can to last longer and longer...
They work with my body and make me orgasm better than any other way wanting more....
They feel me getting tighter and adjust to not pop out as other do in pics...
They listen and what ever I ask they do but make sure not to over do it what ever I might say of faster and harder or deeper (you know, when balls deep you push a little more lol)...

I want what they feel to be amazing to their cock as they are doing so well pleasing me...

I want them to make me cum herder than I ever could on my own or other ways and keep making me cum as I orgasm...

Can one imagine the feeling you gave an orgasm to who you love?
How would that make you feel?
Would that be a huge turn on?
Better than taking could ever be? :)

All that and as I am getting where I can grip their cock and they know it is because I am deeply pleased and looking at them wanting to see their cock going in feeling pleasure as I feel them in me and seeing them react to making it harder to push in...
They know I want them to orgasm from pleasure and want their cum they kept safe from risk so I could with no fear want them to cum all they can in the warmth of my anus as I know they will always pleasure me greatly any time I need without question and even when I did not expect it :)

I want to feel how they make love to me as they orgasm and keep a tight grip till they slide deep and rest as I feel them contract too try and stay hard...
I will relax so I can keep their contracting cock in me and feel them doing all they can to stay in me so I can feel them as we look into each others eyes...

I want us to know we gave and shared and that we will always love each other and find so many ways express it and share it...

If things are magic, Well, I may be hard and they may too...
As they slowly start back, I am not sure if not being so close as before if I would cum before or with them...
I hope they figure this and in that exception they play with my balls,pubic skin and cock till they know they can make me cum again and I then want them to cum also...

If they realy love giving anal and love to make me cum from pleasure.... If they crave it more than once a day... Just shock me by being eager to clean me with pleasure and I will be so ready for anal right them :)

Someone who makes something so great and fun can truly lean me to wanting to get anal much more than just expecting it.

Drive me wild and make me dry cum like crazy first and I will always want to make sure you love the feel of giving anal and want to adjust to your orgasm is just a great...

Do not think I am a bottom..

I want to give like crazy to as the craving hits me...
But if you make getting better than me giving then what would you think I would love :)

But there are times we just give oral and then play with anal...

Like one thing I may like... :)

As we 69 and are hard...
I hope you have got clean and want to play before we started :)

To a giving being I want to try things..
When we are both hard, I lay back some and my mate slowly lowers their anus around my cock...
I want them to let their weight be supported on me :)

Now in my love there may be two ways to go or some combo :)

One would be they can try and see if they can cum just from contractions like others can...
I hope my cock in them as something to grip helps :)

Just to lay there as they find this magic other do and see if they love it and just keep hard for them as I watch and smile might be fun and even more if it makes them cum and they want to do it more...

Note I did not say I cum :) I want them to find how to place me and them self for their pleasure as they would know what they feel and I want the best for them :)

I hope many times along with oral we can just touch and rub areas we only let the other touch..

Spending time even if limp just relaxing.
Placing or hands on pubic skin fingers spread a little so the cock is in between...
Pressing a little in a kinky hug :)
Taking a finger and getting to the head and around it and the skin behind...... Just making a slow rub caressing the others cock and passing time...
Sometimes slowly with some fingers gliding over the balls and behind to find areas that tingle to be rubbed ;)

Tracing the middle line back up to the base of the cock and gliding slowly up the cock to the head and running slow rings behind the head finding those spots that can feel so good it almost is too much :)

Just doing that together sharing time together....

Others would be like when I hope they want to be in my lap in them....

I wonder as I slow play and rub if they like it better with their love touching them and not their own hands...
Do they like having their love in them at the same time?
I try to just keep hard as I explore their lower area finding anything I can tell makes their body tell on them they like the feel :)

To get them to precum and look into their eyes as I finger it off and suck it..
I am playful :)
I may tap their nose with it lol :)

But I will finger it off and suck it at times :)

Might they adjust me in them to feel my cock better as I play :)

Do they want me to keep going slow or speed up some?

Will they now love doing this to me :)

I hope I feel them get tight and even a twitch :)

But I do want them to tell me so they do not cum till I am ready to do whats next...

Do they want slow anal or still me touching their body to make them cum?

In any case DO NOT CUM....

When you know it will happen tell me quick so I can hold and close off the end to save the cum inside till the orgasm is over....

Now. I am hoping the first time they have questions whats next :)

Slowly they lift up and make sure we are clean... I want to get where I can take their cock as if giving oral....

Sealed I let go and suck the cum all out of their cock I held back... every last drop... :)

I wonder what they think of this :)

I hope they crave to do the same to me :)

Now if they are not one to oral after anal (at this time I am not sure if I could.. Would see in time), It would be nice if the told me to take them now I made them cum...

To have them so clean and wanting me to give anal but they are giving them self to me now I made them cum.... Well.. Thinking of it turns me on... :)

So many things so many ways so many times we just want to give to the other but end up sharing and both orgasm and cum...

Just some things I wish others were like out there so the one for life would love to care for me forever and we love each other for ever :)

Do not think all this means thats all..
after all I did out of no where like Lady gaga and born this way...
I wish we all accepted each other and stopped the degrading and hate part...
So much more out there to share if all genders and races truly cared and were not like some are with a few doing all they can to mess up others and even give them sti/stds for fun! no way.. hard limit.. You do not do what one may not want and you do not expect if YOU know what you have that it is up to them to do it all...
To do whats right take way more thought of others and I wish others would see that and get how a person like that would see them as more also...

I am not against people who inform each other and are aware and all for their kink to be happy...

I am all for people to do as they love but respect others rights just as a being as you would want others to respect you...

If you get what I mean... I can stand with almost everyone and their kinks even more so than many would or did....
But I do draw in stone a hard line....
One I do not think is so hard to accept...

I have in my life seen many who would not think I could accept them and think I looked down on them be shocked and just start talking and learning all about things when they know where I stand.

It may be why the least expected ones will be drawn to me...
I stand out at times when around a friend I have I run into...

I seem just standard male...

They can be goth, dominate female (but I am their only male equal), Furr, or any type if their souls are anything like mine and sees and cares for all except who hates and harms.

I truly stand out as the odd one they laugh and say ;)

So I may not want to be a part of something like scat... But I have found later that some people who I would never guess were...
We knew our personal differences and our common ground.
Piss,scat,dirty rim, what ever.. No harm and never pushed ones rights about it.
We did find it interesting to talk about things blunt and open with no insult...

I do find others interesting even if it is not for me lol :)

We can joke.
I was asked if i would like to have a bite and talk to someone I had not seen for a bit..
I laughed and said I will not be having what you will be having and they truly laughed...
One asked if I had those little stoppers I use.... What? (they know I do not mess with anyone unless it is forever and the genders and things I would do... They know I would love just doing 69 to pass time with someone who was with me for life not even to cum but just edge each other and relax)..

The stoppers I said?
Yep, they had a hot date and wanted to suck but could not stand piss..

Ha ha.. In truth I laughed as they can not understand how I can be drawn to oral any gender (just not the ass) and the piss not bug me...
I have no clue,
But never know till someone like me loves me and who knows...

I wish respect was the rule of all for each other above ones personal ideas.
That would allow safe and sane caring to rise and so much just be normal and less hurt and other issues...

Well...
Paws up..
(ya know.. the song.. )...

I confess I have cancer. Its the type of cancer that is socially not 'accepted' so well. It's all my fault my ex-boyfriend is moving back overseas in a couple of weeks. I 'cheated' on him. It was complex. The guy was married...his marriage has been torn apart by the 'affair'. Everything is pretty fucked right now. I lost two men I dearly loved despite the ways they ultimately didn't truly have my best interests at heart. They both abused my trust in ways. Its complex.
The married guy introduced me to the taboo side of sex/exploring ones sexuality...and helped me understand my BDSM tendencies and liking for many other kinks and quirks and taboo arenas/types of sexual exploration my boyfriend didn't care to understand.
I'm scared to undergo all the surgery and chemo and the like. I don't want to be judged and ridiculed and have to be in such a vulnerable position with all these medical professionals poking around inside me. I think its best for everyone if I kill myself. I've planned it. I just have to pay off my debts as best I can and I'm done. Sorry for the lack of excitement ...this is a true confession and unfortunately for some not an attention seeking post screaming fuck me, fuck me or here I'll help you cum. I just need to let this out for people to 'hear' anonymously because nobody I know will ever know whilst I am still alive.

I confess that I made a promise with my best friend that when we live together he could hide in my closet and watch me masturbate. We have a kink for watching in secret. On 1 condition though, we're not allowed to know when the other decides to do it. I can't wait until we find a place to start. We'll also be moving in with a 3rd person so trying to sneak out after will be fun. I get wet just thinking about watching him jerk off. It works out perfectly because I get way to easily embarrassed to masturbate in front of someone. I might buy myself a few new toys as a move in gift 🤔

A month or so ago I cheated on my wife with a younger married woman. My wife is prego and has had zero sex drive since her first trimester. I was tired of being sexually frustrated and decided to make a post on CL.

The only girl that responded was a 18yo girl that had been married 3 months. She was a little chubby but very cute. We talked for a while and we had a lot of the same kinks so we decided to meet.

She was only here for 5 minutes before she was naked and being licked by my dog. When she had cum so much that she was shaking she got on her knees and gave me the best blow job I have ever had. When she got me close to cumming I fucked her ass and blew, what may have been, my biggest load ever in her ass.

I can't wait to try and get her to come over again.

A while ago, my wife left me for another man - our relationship wasn't the best and we both knew it was over. It was a depressing time and it took me a while to get over the divorce. Luckily no kids were involved (even after 15 years of marriage). I coasted through life, turned 50, and really wasn't looking for a serious relationship... until I met this beautiful 24-year-old French girl, who was an art student visiting the USA.
I was a regular to a small dive of a coffee shop, I'd go in there and kick back, read a book and drink some coffee. She was in there a lot too. Eventually she approached me and talked to me.
"You know there's nothing more attractive than a guy reading a book... My name is Reine." She said in broken English with a heavy French accent. (It turns out her name means Queen in French)
I must have blushed, I wasn't used to talking to super attractive women at all - in fact most of the time if I was lonely I'd just find some ugly slut to fuck, or try Tinder which usually resulted in ugly sluts lol.
We talked for a while, got to know each other and she told me she's always had a kink for older men.
We started dating, I told her "You know I'm 26 years older than you so if we're still together when you're 50 I'll be 76 or dead."
She laughed it off, "We'll worry about that if and when we get there. Okay?"
I fell hard for her, I was head over heels in love. She was sweet, charming, and paid attention to me. What more could a guy ask for?
After a few days of getting to know her, we fucked - and let me tell you I've never had any sex that compared to what I've experienced with her. There was energy involved, it was like both of our souls met on a higher level and nothing else mattered.
I warned her that I was getting older, and I got some Cialis to make sure I could stay nice and hard for her.
It was probably about the fifth time we were fucking and she looked into my eyes as I plunged into her and spoke some French, but then translated it into English:
"I don't want you to pull out of me when you cum, I want you inside of me... deep inside of me forever my love."
I paused and all kinds of things flooded into my mind, especially if she was on birth control - and then I leaned forward and kissed her as I began thrusting into her beautiful body. I came deep inside of her, and she held me tight as my cum sprayed into her tight pussy.
It turns out, she had a creampie fetish - a breeding fetish.
This went on for months, and she ended up moving in with me. I'd fuck her almost daily, unless she was on her period. One day she looked a bit concerned and seemed to shut down, and she wouldn't talk to me about what the problem was. I went to work, and when I came back there was a note on the table from her.
"I didn't want to tell you, but I am pregnant and my visa has expired and it needs to be renewed so I need to return to France, I already had a flight booked and I was afraid to tell you. I love you very much and I don't know what to do. You are the most perfect man I have ever met, and I hope one day to be called your wife... but for now, I will return to France and get the visa renewed. I hate leaving you like this, it's stupid of me I know. But if you knew I was pregnant and returning to France, you would have stopped me. I will text you when I land and we will make plans to be together my love.
Always yours,
Reine"
I had a panic attack. I texted her, called her, and nothing. Days passed and depression set in for me.
While I loved this woman with all of my heart, I knew nothing about her family, or where she lived in France. All of her clothing was gone, and she didn't have too many personal items...
Sometimes we would sext each other when I was at work, and that's where the picture came from. I just miss her - and I have even thought about going to France to look for her - but how the hell would I even find her? It's such a big country. I don't even know what city or town she's from.
It all came to a head and I was about to do something stupid and hurt myself (hey depression sucks - and being this in love with someone... well it's like having your guts ripped out)... but I finally heard from her yesterday:
"I'm coming back, but I want you to promise me that we can be married. My father and mother disowned me, they're heavily Catholic. I am sorry I left the way I did, I am sorry for hurting you the way I did, I was just in a bad place - being pregnant, and knowing I have to tell my parents. I will see you soon, I still have a key."
Of course, I texted her back like "WTF WHERE ARE YOU" - hell I don't even know why I'm doing this - maybe out of revenge... but maybe for advice - she's so fucking stunning looking, she's so talented too. I'm broken without her, but I do know that will eventually pass - yet it's so hard to deal with such a loss. Sorry for rambling. Yeah I'll take her back... I might delete this later.

I once had sex with a complete stranger from the Internet and it was some of the best sex I ever had. I used to buy panties off a kink website from hot girls and one time managed to persuade a girl to meet to sell to me. I did hint at possibly more and to my surprise she was coy but willing. She was in a relationship and from what I could gather had a kid too but was still in her early to mid 20s. She decided to come meet me one weekday afternoon while her partner was at work. She was cute, an 8/10 with lots of arm tattoos, short 5'3 brunette, slim and stunning light brown eyes. I left work in the middle of the day citing a dentist appointment and rushed across town on the underground. We met at a train station where she had been waiting for me at a bar having a few drinks to calm her nerves. She was far hotter in real life than her pics let on. Anyway we started to walk around in search of somewhere to no longer get her panties but to have sex as she was now willing to. After a struggle we found a seedy bed and breakfast and I asked if we could just book for a couple of hours. She led me in and undressed to reveal the most perfect body with large, ample breasts on a tight young girl's body. I had old cum just upon seeing her and the fact I was going to fuck her which in some way allowed me to perform longer in her. We stripped off and as I pulled out the condom she said she wanted it natural and that she was 100% clean as she has only ever been with her partner. Normally I would never have chanced it but we were both butt naked and I couldn't wait so in I went. It was some of the best sex I've ever had. She laid on her back and I plowed her senseless. She came and creamed all over my cock. I had to pull out last minute and came all over her stomach. We both enjoyed it so much, she was literally shaking afterwards. I then told her I needed to head back to work and couldn't stay longer, nor could she as she needed to be back home before her partner. I showered off and left her to clean off. I still daydream about that sex. Soon after we exchanged a few more messages though she not long after completely deleted her profile as I suspect guilt crept in. Never saw her again but that sex was some of the best I ever had. Still think of her sometimes while fucking my wife. Oh the good old days when I could fuck anyone and girls weren't just after money...

we are both into scat for 36 years we love scat play in all its forms,we love shit eating shit smearing and we have no restrictions ,we are married couple and we are a kind of legend on the internet in those fetishes , we are both exhibitionists and we love to show ourselves in action on photos and videos ,we started those kinks in 1999 we we went to Danemark for vacation and we rented a scat films in the sex shop film industry and we did the same acts of the actors on the VHS ,at start we were completely in shock but few minutes later we are very excited and ready to try anything so we were full of scat from head to toes and we fucked like that, involving eating poop while we play sex ,we confess we are totally addicted to scat and we think about it everyday my wife and I we cant play have sex anymore without including scat play its always in our minds especially when we watch scatporn clips on websites it's the best way to get in the mood for messy dirty extreme fun, we thinking to include a third person for a long time it's almost become an obsession especially a single bbw busty girl cause we love big ass and big tits each time when we play scatsex together we imagine in this 3some this fat girl doing all fetishes we like and practice without any limits, full of shit all three together and having big orgasms ,we confess we are very kinky couple and proud of it.

I am 43, divorced, and about a year ago I started dating this pretty hot career woman. She is blonde, three years younger than me, never got married, making partner at her firm was her prime goal in life, and now, that she had finally done it, she wants to "settle down".

I was a bit reluctant, told her I am out of a bad marriage, that I need time, to get to know her, and cooled off all the marriage talk she gave me from the start.

It would be a red flag instantly, and I would get the hell out of there sooner, if the sex wasnt that good. I have had my fair share of experience, nothing special, have done a few things in bed, with a few women, but this one... Never been with a woman who fucks like a porn star.

Well, soon enough, I found out why.

She started talking about it from a far, you know, marriage talk was replaced by kinks, fantasies, etc, and we tried some of the stuff, like public sex, risky things, and eventually, she told me she used to swing, and that it might be interesting.

Who did she swing with, how this came to be, those were the questions I asked, and she gave me vague answers.

At this point "settling down" with her was out of the window, but curiosity got the better of me (and amazing sex), and I went down the rabbit hole of swinging.

I went to three parties - she was a celebrity there, everyone knew her. Even I got some "special treatment". First time we went, she immediately got one of her friends, a pretty good looking brunette, to "make me relax", and she lead me to a room, in which she gave me head. Great head.

When I got out looking for her, I found her in one of the rooms, on her back, with a man between her legs. I didnt stay to watch, got back to the kitchen and had a few drinks. She got back ten minutes later, and we stayed there for the rest of the night.

Sex got even better, to the point in which, I thought I was dreaming this whole thing.

Second time, we ended up in a room with a couple, about ten years older than us. She was a fragile, tiny blonde, cute face, but still looking old. My girl was sucking his cock, and I noticed, that it was the smallest erect cock I have ever seen, and the though of me power fucking the wife of a sausage man, made me go balistic, so I pounded her like there is no tomorrow. Husband quickly came on my girls tits, and then they both laid next to us, and watched. With a condom, I can go all day, so this lasted for a while, and it was hot.

For the third time, we started drinking heavily at the very beginning, and after a while I was like, fuck it, I am just gonna hang out tonight. She got lost at some point, since we both felt quite comfortable now, and I decided to look for her.

Found her in a room with a man she was with on the first night, decided to stick around. He was taking her from behind, and she was pretty vocal. Something looked off, so I came little closer, and saw that he was in her ass. She turned her head towards me, at some point, as I stood there like a lamp post, smiled at me with the most beautiful smile in the world, and as he proceeded to go harder, maybe even aroused by this non verbal interaction, she started screaming, while looking at me.

Later that night, when we got to my place, I fucked her for three hours, and it was the best night of my life.

After that, I broke it off.

That smile made me realize, that I love her, and I can not be a cuck.

I'm 23/f and I have always been really fixated on sex.

From a pretty young age (10/11) I realized it felt really good when I touched myself. I had a really big stuffed Tigger and I used to tuck his tail up between his legs and hump it until I got off. I also did the same thing with towels, I would roll them up and hump them.

Once when I was about 12, my best friend (who was 14) and I had a sleepover and we were playing games. I don't remember exactly how it happened but at one point we decided to get naked and grind our pussies against each others legs until we got off. Afterwards she told me not to say anything to anyone and we've never mentioned it again.

I had my first real boyfriend in grade 8. We would make out and he would grip my ass and grind me onto his cock until he came. Eventually he started to finger me and he wasn't very good at it but it was exciting and I liked that he liked it so I never made him stop. He taught me how he liked to be jerked off using lotion so I started doing that and I tried giving him head once but his cock tasted like the lotion and it grossed me out.

In grade 9 I got an older boyfriend (I was 14 and he was 16) and we fooled around a lot. Eventually, on my birthday, he convinced me to have sex. My birthday was on Super Bowl sunday that year and we had sex before everyone came over and again at half time when our friends were downstairs in the den. I liked that if anyone came up they would see what we were doing.

About 3 months later we were at his friend's house party and we all got really drunk and high. He passed out on the couch and a couple of his friends took me upstairs and they both started touching me and making out with me. I felt bad because I cared about my boyfriend but I was drunk and I really wanted to be touched. I sucked one of their cocks while the other one fingered me and jerked off. I never told my boyfriend but we broke up a few months later and I've always wondered if his friends ever came clean about it.

After that I decided I didn't want a boyfriend for a while, I just wanted to have fun. I would go to parties, make out with my girl friends and then fool around with guys. Once we were at a party and the cops broke it up so a few of us snuck into the attic. While we were up there one of the guys (the one who had fingered me when my boyfriend was passed out) had me suck his dick in front of everyone else up there. It felt incredible and after he came, one of my girl friends came over and we made out for a while.

I've settled down since then, mostly sticking to boyfriends but I can never find one who can keep up with my kinky side. All the guys I've been with are so much more boring than when I was younger and I miss it so fucking much. Now that I'm starting to explore even more kinks, I can barely stand having normal, boring sex. It's gotten to the point where I've broken up with a few guys because they don't want to try anything fun and I end up masturbating most nights. Where are all the good men?!

So, a little background about me. I’m a 34-year-old girl from Belfast in Northern Ireland. I travel across Europe with work often and have been exploring its various sex clubs, swingers parties, and porn cinemas for the past seven years. I’m a full-blown porn and sex addict and have a massive kink for cum. It’s this kink that starts this story.

A couple of years back, I was working in one of my favorite cities: Berlin. Home to a massive sex scene, I adore it there and have built up a close circle of friends from Berlin's local fetish scenes. One of whom, who we’ll just call Monica, is my best friend. Like me, she’s proud to call herself a whore.

In her early 40s, Monica has certainly been around the adult industry circuit. She has been like a mentor to me and taught me a lot of lessons in the kink scene of Germany and beyond. Whilst we both consider ourselves mostly straight, we’ve had casual sex with each other a number of times.

I was supposed to be based in Berlin for two months, I and Monica had a tonne of plans to pack in as much debauchery as possible. Two days in, whilst merrily walking to the Metro after a late-night BDSM party, I tripped and broke my ankle on the curb. Classic… After a trip to the hospital, I was now looking at 6-weeks of recovery and the joys of working from my apartment.

Needless to say, I was pretty down. All my plans had gone out of the window and I wasn’t looking forward to wasting two months in my favourite city when I could be sampling all of the sexual delights Berlin had to offer. Luckily, I had my best friend by my side. Rather than go to the clubs without me, she would come to my place most nights, cook with me, and we would relax with a few glasses of wine.

She would sometimes tease me about her regular sex with her many fuck buddies. But as the weekend approached, it wasn’t just me who was craving some debauchery. She knew I was down, and wanted to do something to cheer me up and get some pleasure out of it herself.

On a Friday night, Monica was coming over for some drinks but she was an hour late, which she knows I can’t stand. But her texts reassured me it would be worth it. When she arrived at the door, she had a sordid look in her eye that I know only too well. She’d been drinking and smelled like sex. She kissed me whilst coming through the door before leading me to the bedroom.

On the bed, she stripped off and spread her legs telling me her fuck buddy had left me a present. Taking off her panties, I saw her freshly fucked pussy leaking with white cum. I needed no instruction and slowly got between her legs and cleaned her up. It was heavenly and intensely erotic. I started playing with my clit and savouring the cum, having multiple orgasms with my nose pressed against my friend's clit.

In the weeks that followed, we ended up arranging dates to repeat it. She would often goad a couple of loads from her fuck buddies to give me a better cum reward. We thought about inviting him for some female cuckold play, but decided to keep it between us girls. Plus my ankle and crutches didn’t boost my sex appeal.

One of the most erotic things about it was not having a clue whose cum I was eating. It was all consensual, of course, and her fuck buddies knew about her dirty antics. Just imagining them masturbating at the thought of a random girl eating the sloppy mess they pumped into their fuck buddy Monica turned me on immensely.

Thankfully, my ankle healed fine and I was able to get back into the fetish scenes of the city on my next visits. A crappy time, but the silver lining was some seriously erotic memories between me and my friend.