I am here to feel the spark I once felt, to feel alive, like I once did.
We are married for ten years, and he lost almost all interest in me. Not that we do not have sex, we do, and that is not the problem, nor did I let myself go, at 39, I still look better than most of my peers. The excitement is what I lack.
We used to have a wild sex life, he was the best lover I ever had ,not that I had many, but he was all over me, all day, every day, we did it in semi public places, we did role play, we filmed ourselves, to watch it later, we even did a swap once, before marriage, on a holiday, and it was all fun, and lust, and...
Now he does it, like it is an obligation, not caring if I finish or not. I miss the old days.
